dear all fervent readers of this blog,
F.R.E.E.D.O.M. oh man, so many things and ppl to meet up with! (: i hope i can accomplish everything! (: alrights, i think that's all from me now. it seems like a rather lengthy post. anw, i was thinking of doing something to my hair! should i perm it? or cut it short?
HELLO WORLD! (:
today, i finally admitted to myself that i really am rather foolish.
yay! i'm in the blogging mood! ((:
oh my!
hy⋅poc⋅ri⋅sy –noun, plural -sies.
i've shifted! (:
to a brand new blog, all done by myself, yes you didnt see it wrongly! hahaha.
to a brand new start! (:
http://thelifestoryofme.wordpress.com/
love,
flor. (:
10:05 AM.
" Tuesday, April 28, 2009
finally! it's over. ((:
i seriously wondered how i survived the past three sems cos this sem seem so heavy, so draining on the brian and everything.
yst was the killer paper. the first paper that i dread throughout the past few sems that i've undergone.
the paper was ... i manipulated it my way and wrote things my way (from the text though) so i've done my best and i guess i can only leave the rest up to Him.
hopefully the lecturer is in a good mood when she sees my paper and can understand my handwriting. it's so scary, so unpredicatable.
when i first started the paper, i couldnt rmb what i wanted to write, and i thought "am i havign a mental block? oh God please dont let me have a mental block cos i'm only at my first qns, and it's not even an essay qns."
yup, thats how paranoid i felt. and worst still, i even dreamt about my tutor scolding me when it's not even my presentation... )):
that aside, i'm gg to have my fruitful 3 months hols! ((:
i was thinking if i should take up a job. but then again, i should spend more time with love bef he starts sch and i can just take up relief classes for tutition to earn more money!
that would be nice cos then i'm not really very 'tied down' and all. ((:
and i'll have more time to spend with my loved ones and friends!
so many people to meet and so many things to do! i cant wait! (:
10:35 PM.
" Sunday, April 5, 2009
okay, i'm actually supposed to be blogging abt anni and all.
but i dont have the necessary things to blog about it *hint hint*
hahahaha
anyways, this year's super tiring.
cos everyone around is 21!
and i feel mean not attending their parties.
went to rebel yst till 5 plus in the morn.
towards the night/morning then it got better, cos i was quite pissed by a bunch of SLOW GUYS!
and i thought only girls would do that! :|
so anyways, i'm off for the semesteral mugging season le.
work hard flor!
22 more days to freedom! (:
unlike someone (my bobonut) who has 12 more days to freedom! tsk!
alrights, toodles ppl. (:
9:22 PM.
" Monday, March 23, 2009
no matter what others said, i chose to believe that you are not what they said you are.
i chose to give you the benefit of doubt.
but i had to chance upon the fact today though accidentally.
i guess i'm not worthy enough for you to trust...
i could only sigh at our current situation and think about the fun times we had together.
the talk never came...
i thought that i would be fine.
and i thought that i would only see children denying about things in my face.
i never thought i would see a so-called friend doing this.
and i was just concerned about things.
oh wells, i guess i dont deserved that either...
jaded at everything thats going on in my life.
i wished the holidays will be here soon.
someone, take me away from all these please...
9:45 PM.
" Sunday, March 8, 2009
instead of feeling bored and sad in hall on a sunday night, I'M HOME!! (:
yippee doodle! (:
am in my room, with the door open.
feel so blissful when there are sounds in the living room
feel so at ease at all those familiar sounds
i cant wait to move home, another few more weeks to go!!! (((:
anyways, i really think i'm very emotional! hahah.
not that people who have known me alr not know. heh
have got lots of deadlines in the next few weeks
plus exams and all.
i think i'll really need to focus and everything.
i cant wait for the looooonnnnnngggggg holidays!
yippee doodles! ((:
i need to SERIOUSLY go on a diet during then too.
must be determined! 47 47 47 47 47 47 47 47!!!!!
10:56 AM.
" Friday, February 27, 2009
recess week's coming to an end! ):
i feel like i haven't done much.
rushed my assignments and slacked a few days.
feel like a 'zai nu' (with .. on top of u)
cos i've been cooped up at home almost the whole week.
gonna step out of the house later but with apprehension.
i thank God that when that happened, i was still home, not out on my way to do proj yet.
if not, i bet i wont forgive myself so easily.
everything happened so sudden.
i was panicking but i thank God i was still rational.
mummy said if it was her, she wouldnt know what to do..
now that everything's over, i just pray that everything will go fine
especially when no one is at home.
sigh.
i feel like giving up, on everything...
i'm amazed that i've come so far.
i dont know how i did it.
but i think it's from His strength.
"continue to strengthen me Lord,
and guide me through all these.
i pray..."
8:55 PM.
" Thursday, February 5, 2009
1. a pretense of having a virtuous character, moral or religious beliefs or principles, etc., that one does not really possess.
2. a pretense of having some desirable or publicly approved attitude.
3. an act or instance of hypocrisy.
hypocrisy.
sometimes i just feel that everyone of us is guilty of it - being hypocritical.
however, there may be 2 different types of hypocritical ppl.
one side is those who are hypocritical, realises it and try not to be it but unconsciously may fall into being hypocritical again.
the other side belongs to those who are hypocritical, do not realise it and continues to be it.
i do admit that there are times which i have been so hypocritical about things and people.
but i try my utmost best not to be as far as possible.
never judge a book by its cover.
cliche as it may seem, but how true it is.
time and time again one may question oneself WHY?
why do we always trust that everybody in this whole is nice?
always giving ppl the benefit of doubt?
always thinking that we should never do things unto others as we dont want to have bad karma?
always being so nice to others at the expense of our own welfare?
always putting others first before us?
but in the very end, we are at a loss, we are the disadvantaged ones, we reprimand ourselves for our stupidity and everything else.
we put the blame on ourselves.
sometimes, or rather frequently, i wished certain parts/phases of my life could return to a clean slate, to before where i could really open up my small eyes to look at this world, the people around, to cherish friends and the times we spent tgt.
i miss pj! )':
when i saw mr. kuek in sch on tues, i was so happy, so excited, but so sad at the same time cos nobody could relate to my happiness and excitement.
i rmb what our j1 MT teacher said: "your jc friends/mates will be the bestest friends/mates that you'd have ever known."
how true! [not that i dont miss sec sch life with wee, steph & the guys, i still do! (:]
i wanna go home! )):
wanna hide within the 4 walls of my home with my family around me.
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