i'm very confused now..
i have no idea what he wants, neither do i have any idea what i want..
he knows what he's doing..
but i dont know what i'm doing..
it's so against my principles but i'm not doing anything..
i'm not sure if i've made a right decision..
i'm not sure if i've made any decision..
aargh!! )):
this is so irritating.
i just want something simple - no complications, no nothing..
is it that difficult to ask of??
i'm very determined to not get myself hurt again..
but sometimes, my stupid actions seem to lead me exactly there..
and not long after, history will once again repeat itself..
i want the rational me back..
i want to prepare myself for anything that might cropped up..
i dont want to be in a vulnerable state anymore..
please dont let the emotional me take over,
for when she takes over, i know then, it'll be too late for the rational me to try to do damage control..
honestly, i dont know what my next step should be..
should i stop and drop everything just like that?
or should i indulge myself?
i dont know how to breach this topic to him..
everytime i wanted to, i cant seem to carry on, cos he really seems to draw a clear line..
AARGH!!!
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