waiting for a true love's kiss

shifted!

2009-05-13T11:41:00.002+08:00

dear all fervent readers of this blog,

i've shifted! (:
to a brand new blog, all done by myself, yes you didnt see it wrongly! hahaha.

to a brand new start! (:

http://thelifestoryofme.wordpress.com/

love,
flor. (:

FREEDOM! (:

2009-04-28T10:05:00.002+08:00

F.R.E.E.D.O.M.

finally! it's over. ((:
i seriously wondered how i survived the past three sems cos this sem seem so heavy, so draining on the brian and everything.

yst was the killer paper. the first paper that i dread throughout the past few sems that i've undergone.
the paper was ... i manipulated it my way and wrote things my way (from the text though) so i've done my best and i guess i can only leave the rest up to Him.
hopefully the lecturer is in a good mood when she sees my paper and can understand my handwriting. it's so scary, so unpredicatable.
when i first started the paper, i couldnt rmb what i wanted to write, and i thought "am i havign a mental block? oh God please dont let me have a mental block cos i'm only at my first qns, and it's not even an essay qns."
yup, thats how paranoid i felt. and worst still, i even dreamt about my tutor scolding me when it's not even my presentation... )):

that aside, i'm gg to have my fruitful 3 months hols! ((:
i was thinking if i should take up a job. but then again, i should spend more time with love bef he starts sch and i can just take up relief classes for tutition to earn more money!
that would be nice cos then i'm not really very 'tied down' and all. ((:

and i'll have more time to spend with my loved ones and friends!
so many people to meet and so many things to do! i cant wait! (:

there's gg to rent a car to go drive around with mummy and perhaps the family during weekends
there's spending time with love and doing everything - working out, play PS2, shopping with him and the family, etc.
spending time with wee and steph! suppose to go HK according to what we planned last yr but i think i cmi cos i'll be having practicum during the HK sales! ):
there's meeting up with PRF and doing all sort of things. haha, sounds so wrong! I MISS QPL! ):
meeting up with gene
meeting up with chau choon
meeting up with hui
meeting up with praba
meeting up with HEMA
meeting up with ade
meeting up with VANESSA SOH QIAN YI!! (: [i cant wait to go for practicum now! 5 weeks of seeing her it's like back to sec sch! (:]

oh man, so many things and ppl to meet up with! (: i hope i can accomplish everything! (:

alrights, i think that's all from me now. it seems like a rather lengthy post. anw, i was thinking of doing something to my hair! should i perm it? or cut it short?

late posts

2009-04-05T22:35:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD! (:

okay, i'm actually supposed to be blogging abt anni and all.
but i dont have the necessary things to blog about it *hint hint*
hahahaha

anyways, this year's super tiring.
cos everyone around is 21!
and i feel mean not attending their parties.

went to rebel yst till 5 plus in the morn.
towards the night/morning then it got better, cos i was quite pissed by a bunch of SLOW GUYS!
and i thought only girls would do that! :|

so anyways, i'm off for the semesteral mugging season le.
work hard flor!
22 more days to freedom! (:
unlike someone (my bobonut) who has 12 more days to freedom! tsk!

alrights, toodles ppl. (:

foolish me

2009-03-23T21:22:00.003+08:00

today, i finally admitted to myself that i really am rather foolish.
no matter what others said, i chose to believe that you are not what they said you are.
i chose to give you the benefit of doubt.
but i had to chance upon the fact today though accidentally.

i guess i'm not worthy enough for you to trust...

i could only sigh at our current situation and think about the fun times we had together.
the talk never came...

i thought that i would be fine.
and i thought that i would only see children denying about things in my face.
i never thought i would see a so-called friend doing this.
and i was just concerned about things.

oh wells, i guess i dont deserved that either...

jaded at everything thats going on in my life.
i wished the holidays will be here soon.
someone, take me away from all these please...

blogging mood

2009-03-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

yay! i'm in the blogging mood! ((:
instead of feeling bored and sad in hall on a sunday night, I'M HOME!! (:
yippee doodle! (:

am in my room, with the door open.
feel so blissful when there are sounds in the living room
feel so at ease at all those familiar sounds
i cant wait to move home, another few more weeks to go!!! (((:

anyways, i really think i'm very emotional! hahah.
not that people who have known me alr not know. heh

have got lots of deadlines in the next few weeks
plus exams and all.
i think i'll really need to focus and everything.

i cant wait for the looooonnnnnngggggg holidays!
yippee doodles! ((:
i need to SERIOUSLY go on a diet during then too.
must be determined! 47 47 47 47 47 47 47 47!!!!!

end of recess week

2009-02-27T10:56:00.003+08:00

oh my!
recess week's coming to an end! ):
i feel like i haven't done much.
rushed my assignments and slacked a few days.

feel like a 'zai nu' (with .. on top of u)
cos i've been cooped up at home almost the whole week.
gonna step out of the house later but with apprehension.

i thank God that when that happened, i was still home, not out on my way to do proj yet.
if not, i bet i wont forgive myself so easily.
everything happened so sudden.
i was panicking but i thank God i was still rational.
mummy said if it was her, she wouldnt know what to do..

now that everything's over, i just pray that everything will go fine
especially when no one is at home.
sigh.

i feel like giving up, on everything...
i'm amazed that i've come so far.
i dont know how i did it.
but i think it's from His strength.

"continue to strengthen me Lord,
and guide me through all these.
i pray..."

random thoughts

2009-02-05T20:55:00.003+08:00

hy⋅poc⋅ri⋅sy –noun, plural -sies.
1. a pretense of having a virtuous character, moral or religious beliefs or principles, etc., that one does not really possess.
2. a pretense of having some desirable or publicly approved attitude.
3. an act or instance of hypocrisy.

hypocrisy.
sometimes i just feel that everyone of us is guilty of it - being hypocritical.
however, there may be 2 different types of hypocritical ppl.
one side is those who are hypocritical, realises it and try not to be it but unconsciously may fall into being hypocritical again.
the other side belongs to those who are hypocritical, do not realise it and continues to be it.
i do admit that there are times which i have been so hypocritical about things and people.
but i try my utmost best not to be as far as possible.

never judge a book by its cover.
cliche as it may seem, but how true it is.
time and time again one may question oneself WHY?
why do we always trust that everybody in this whole is nice?
always giving ppl the benefit of doubt?
always thinking that we should never do things unto others as we dont want to have bad karma?
always being so nice to others at the expense of our own welfare?
always putting others first before us?
but in the very end, we are at a loss, we are the disadvantaged ones, we reprimand ourselves for our stupidity and everything else.
we put the blame on ourselves.

sometimes, or rather frequently, i wished certain parts/phases of my life could return to a clean slate, to before where i could really open up my small eyes to look at this world, the people around, to cherish friends and the times we spent tgt.

i miss pj! )':
when i saw mr. kuek in sch on tues, i was so happy, so excited, but so sad at the same time cos nobody could relate to my happiness and excitement.
i rmb what our j1 MT teacher said: "your jc friends/mates will be the bestest friends/mates that you'd have ever known."
how true! [not that i dont miss sec sch life with wee, steph & the guys, i still do! (:]

i wanna go home! )):
wanna hide within the 4 walls of my home with my family around me.

HAPPY CNY! (:

2009-01-25T20:51:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR (eve)! ((:

it's been a while since i last blogged but all's well.
just very busy with schoolwork and READINGS till i hardly have time for my loved ones and friends. my bad! i'll try to spend more time with everyone alrights?

just came back from reunion dinner with the family at chinatown.
at first i thought we wont have reunion dinner this year cos of the 'king' (newly coined name which so suits him.heh)
but thank God everything went very well and we had a good reunion dinner at eight treasure vegetarian restaurant. surprisingly, the food there tasted so 'real' and i told daddy that if he could make some of those colorful dishes instead of all browns & greens then i wont mind turing into a vegan!

i love having meals together with the family, even though not with the bigger family, but i'm just as contended. (:

went to chinatown to walk a bit but didnt really enjoy the trip cos it was drizzling so we hurried our way through, bought our stuff then went off le.

came home and received a call from my 5th uncle telling us to go over to 1st uncle's place for meet-up. double yayness. if you know how my maternal family is like then you would know why i'm so hyped up when i received the call from them. (:

i LOVE chinese new year! (:
but poor love, have to be at home and finish up schoolwork.
it's like one of us is in msia during the cny while the other's still in town.
and love said that i'm the one who's in m'sia. hahahah.
i adore my lovely chuk muk and do await for the thing that i bought for you! ((:

wishing all a happy, prosperous and blessed chinese new year.
may all the money come rolling in!
HUAT AR! ((:

happy new year! (:

2009-01-04T15:23:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 2009 EVERYONE! (:

new year was spent over at love's place, playing with the kids.
they were VERY adorable! hahah. ((:

so anyways, it's been a few years since the new year has started alr.
and i'm turning 21 this year.
i suddenly feel so old! ):

school's starting tml and i'm done moaning over my timetable.
moving back to hall = lesser time at home = HOMESICK.
but oh wells, just for another sem.

have made my resolutions already.
and am very determined to fulfill them by the end of this year! (:

start the year right with God and this year will end RIGHT. (:

anyways, a number of people to give thanks to for the past year.
they made my life whole and sane! (:
thank God for them! (:

the family
the past year, we've spent quality time together.
and not only that, we've started to talk to one another about stuff.
maybe cos they feel that i'm old enough to understand! haha.
to more quality time spent in year 2009! (:

love
well, it was amazing to meet you.
the past nine months in the past year was well-spent.
and i never thought that i would be able to feel so loved, happy and glad that there is an additional someone for me to turn to and to talk about things.
even though we have had some downs but all is well. (:
to more love for each other in year 2009! (:

PRF (limjiaxin, quekpeiling, soosuxian, tayeileen & chengliyi)
although all of us are busy with our own stuff and are going through the different phases of our life, we never fail to try to meet up and catch up. and even though sometimes we may just sit down and stay quiet, we know that we can actually count on one another if ever something happen to anyone of us!
and yes quekpeiling, we will grow close and old together! haha.
to more meet-ups and gatherings in year 2009! (:

weewaniqivanessa & awyongcuiwenstephanieshannon
yay, the threesome! (:
though we may be at different stages of our lives now, doing different things, going after different aspirations, i thank God that they are always there and they always know what to say because they have known me for years!
and it's so hard to meet up with them and see them online and all, but we all know that deep down we care!
to the overseas trip in year 2009! (:

tohyewkeateugene
like what he has said, though we have kinda drifted apart from one another in the past year, we still make time for each other.
and i'm glad that both of us have found our love and are happy now.
and i'm glad that eveyrthing is going fine for him.
thanks for being you and knowing me and knowing how life can be so hard on the both of us!
to more rides in YOUR car and more meet ups in year 2009! (:

pangchauchoon, wangHANhui, seowzicaosigmund & jamesvinaykumarrai
the clique in school whom dont have any common course!
hahah. sometimes it's so hard to meet up in school and even harder during the holidays!
but we know that we'll always be there for each other.
and we always laugh the loudest and do all kinds of stupid things together!
i thank them for not judging me but jsut showing their concern.
and i LOVE my roomie with her sweet gestures! (:
to more stupid things and adventurous things in year 2009! (:

and last but not least,

prabaakaran
the one who will always listen to my whinings, no matter what! (:
thanks for being there and lending your listening ear whenever i needed to whine.
and i do hope that the next sem your timetable will be more 'compatible' to mine so that we can meet for lunch! (:
he's always offering advices from an adult's point of view.
and sometimes i feel like he's like my daddy! haha.
to more advices and meet-ups in year 2009! (:

okay! i'm done before i disappear for a very long time/not.
2009 holds many hopes for me and i believe for everyone.
and i believe no matter how bleak the economy may seem, we will all be able to seek happines in the little things we do and in the experiences that we share in all our relationships with people around.

to a blessed, fulfilling, enjoyable and merry NEW YEAR! (:

post christmas! (:

2008-12-30T15:12:00.005+08:00

happy christmas everybody! (:

i'm here to update! (:
this year's christmas wasnt that happening.
but this year's christmas, other than having meet-ups with friends, spending time with family, i also went for service (remembering what happened more than 2000 years ago).

met up with gene, praba, hui, james, sig, stephie, wee and PRF but didnt really take much pics.
spent most of the time catching up and all. (:
anyways, i think i'm just going to upload a few pics and say a few stuff.
tribute to them will be left till tml or 1st of jan! (:

meeting up with gene & xiao hui was for a while only.
never really talked much since both of them were rushing.
but it was good seeing the both of them tgt.
they look like secondary school couples! heh. no offense bro! (:

candlelight svc with xin & jeremy.
it was good and His presence was really really tangible.
we are all people of great value, vision and compassion! (:

meeting up with praba was not bad. HAHA. (:
love came along too.
had a good laugh at whatever he told us, although at a point both of them felt very awkward by the things that i asked. HAHA

meeting up with james, hui & sig for lunch and an adventurous day.
cc couldnt make it though.
had lunch at out of the pan/ smth like that
the dessert looks fab!

agree?? (:
then we went to the Arts House for this exhibition - YOLO, make it count.
it means You Only Live Once, make it count.
there, sig & hui embarrass me! ):
but it's alright, i forgive them! hahaha.
then we walked to suntec's tcc, sat down and talk till it's time to meet stephie & wee.

went to coffee club at marina with stephie & wee,
had dinner, talked, went to do last min xmas shopping, went over to esplanade to take pics but my camera sucks! ):
then went to 7atenine for drinks.
love was very sweet to come pick stephie & me up.
wee was chauffeured home by her love! (:

okay, this is the best pic i can find, though i look hideous!

on christmas eve, after dental, love brought me to SNOW CITY! (:
it was VERY cold! but both of us had fun! though we were quite disappointed at the sand look alike snow and the space of everything.
my silly love thought that it would be snowing fake snow inside! hahahahaha!
i hearts you love! (:
then after that went to the rest. to get food then hurried back to love's place for the xmas party!

on christmas day, went to james' church with hui & love.
after that went to causeway point, had macs then watched bolt.

on boxing day, had a xmas gathering with PRF.
it was great to meet up with them again.
though we went to settlers, we spent most of our time eating and talking than playing, heh.
it's was quite sad that liyi couldnt make it.

the reindeer hairband to us from jaixin.
LIYI, i'm holding yours! (:

everybody's gift to everybody.
actually the ones that i'm holding is liyi's ones cause the photo frame is from me to them! hahaha.

okay, i'm done!
i hope it's not too lengthy.
enjoy the last days of 2008.
and look forward to 2009! wee~ ((:

post course registration

2008-12-18T13:50:00.002+08:00

with regards to the prev. post, i'm alright alr everybody out there who worried about me.
thanks for the concern and i'll fill you all in when we meet! (:

just went to register courses.
next sem could choose btw 4 eng electives. but they only offered 2 this sem.
and everybody (as expected) chose analysing text.
when i went in to register the course, they rejected me cos the CLASS IS FULL. )):
sadness to the max.
so i went to read the summary for the only elective left.
read it very seriously (cos i never thought of taking that elective) and realised that it's something that i'd actually prefer more than analysing text.
even though it means more memory work (analysing text is open-book). but i guess it'd be more fun taking something that is different. (:

i do have an optimistic mind today, dont i? heh.
language and literacy, here i come! ((:

i can feel the festive season coming alr! ((:
so many many meet-ups! (:

today:
karaoke-ing with love & love's friends.

tomorrow:
christmas gathering with xin & gene

saturday:
tuition
christmas service with xin and maybe jeremy
most prob dinner with praba

next tuesday:
christmas gathering with uni loves (lunch)
christmas gathering with wee & stephie (dinner)

next wednesday:
christmas service with hui & james

next thursday:
christmas service with james & hui (maybe)
christmas with love

next friday:
christmas gathering with PRF (hopefully xin can come!)

alrights, i'm gg to continue packing my messy messy room alr.
till then. (:

2008-12-07T18:04:00.003+08:00

突然好想用华文来抒发自己的感想。

不知道自己发生了什么事。
不知道自己到底是该开心或伤心。
不知道该开心或伤心的原因是为了什么，只是突然好想到一个没人认识我的地方去，过一个平凡又单纯的日子。

好想放下这里的全部，不告而别，到一个很遥远的地方。
但我想我没有勇气和钱把以上的事完成。哈哈。
不够钱是理所当然的事，因为觉得自己还没有能力为下半生不愁。
没勇气离开的原因是因为不想让身边的父母，好朋友们担心我。
也不想让他们伤心，难过。

真是的，明明知道不能完成这个fantasy但还是要去想。

现在只希望２００９年能够快点到来，
这样就能把所有不愉快的事阁在２００８年里，永远不要回头去想这些不愉快的事了。

christmas 快到了，但我就是开心不起来。。。

能不能不爱了，
因为爱太痛了，
我痛得快死了，
却无法把你忘了。。。

first week of hols

2008-11-23T22:31:00.002+08:00

woohoo, it sure feels so good to be slacking and bumming around! ((:
here's the update which i feel that i need to blog about (esp so when xin blogged about it)

wednesday:
slept half the day away then met up with xin for lunch, catch up and jalanjalan-ing.
was trying our luck to see if sx was home so that we can meet up with her too,
but she was mugging hard in school. (it's alright, we'll meet up soon! ((:)

went town-ing with love in the evening.
was stuck in the jam for what seem like hours bef reaching town at 8plus.
was very heartache for love cos we went through the gantry at 7.51pm, and ERP stops at 7.55pm (okay, i bet if hui, cc, xin, gene, sig and love sees this they will definitely say i'm very auntie or 'assam' for the first 2 ppl, but i dont care! (:)
had dinner then walked around, waiting for the rain to stop.
walked over to taka's fox and wanted to buy stuff, little did we know that when we've decided what to buy, they've alr closed their cashiers alr. SORRY! but they were a bunch of very nice ppl! (:
then went over to cine to watch MADAGASCAR 2, and love fell in love with KING JULIAN.
and i saw CASSIE LIM SHI QIAN. (:

thursday:
didnt really do anything much i think?
had prata with gene and went on a ride in HIS OWN CAR.
black toyota altis.
cant help but scolded him about not treating his backseats NICELY and was tempted to clean it up for him. heh.
gene's gf, if you see this, please scold gene on my behalf and make sure he keeps his car clean!

then went over to love's place to slack! (:

friday:
i left my comfort zone behind my parents' back.
went into JB and did my hair, spent time with love, xin and jeremy and a short time with bobby!
they were very mean to me. they tricked me and i really thought i was in KL when i'm all the time in JB. i felt so silly. but oh wells.
it was a great time spent tgt.
and there were many good food! nice wanton mee, beef noodles, claypot rice, less gas-y coke...
and K-BOXing!! (:
sang many many songs and christmas carols but felt that the chirstmas carols' MVs dont match the songs! ):
though we didnt shop much, it was still a good time spent tgt.
anyways, i realised it isnt much details cause most of the feelings were felt there and then and remembered, i think it's really quite difficult to put these feelings into words.

saturday:
town-ing with love again.
was super crowded and the weather wasn't really very good.
didnt shop around much but bought a few things. (:

sunday:
breakfast with xin with my mind still in sleeping mode.
came back home and slacked the rest of the day away. heh.

am looking forward to the rest of the holidays.
meet-ups with everybody and go to many many places! ((:

school's out! (:

2008-11-19T11:39:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL'S OUT; HERE COMES THE HOLIDAYSSSS! ((:

yayness to the max! (wherever that phrase came from, sound so NOT me)
anyways, i've studied my best, done my best fro my papers, so i'm just gonna leave the rest up to Him. (:

i think i'm experiencing FATIGUE now. ):
but i guess it will really take a while for me to get over it.
and by the time i got over it, i think sem 2 is starting alr. )):

anyways, i'm so looking forward to the hols!
i need to look for a job cause i think i need cash. ):

i wanted to buy myself something yst after exams to pamper myself but in the end i didnt.
but i did pamper myself to something else and it was really good to feel pampered! (:
i'm officially a dark-purple nail polish addict! ((:

meet-ups with EVERYBODY soon! ((:

and i'm gg to devour some korean dramas throughout the hols.

mugging season

2008-11-02T16:19:00.002+08:00

hello all! (:
even though i hardly blog now and am not sure how many still reads,
i aim to post one or two entries per month! ha, thats better then NOTHING! (:

anyways, it's the semestral mugging seasonnnnn. )):
this sem is so packed, intense, unpredictable!
have got 3 papers, though everybody keep saying it's strictly 2 cos the other one is just test.
BUT it's 100% of my mod grade, purely MCQ! and i suck at MCQ (with reference to econs paper 3yrs ago. boo.)
oh wells, think i'm just gonna study hard for it, do it and leave the rest up to HIM. (:

sociolinguistics is...
revision is halfway there. just finished reading the horrendous text of 12chapt, which i take roughly 2.5hrs for each chapt. ):

pragmatics is...
open book but it's all application, justification and all.

what can i say??
STUDY HARD LORRR~

I'M MEETING LJX ON 20TH! (: [and hopefully the rest too]
that lucky girl finishes her exams when i just started. ):

okayy. i hate to end this entry.
cos ending this entry = back to the lect notes & tutorials. ):

on a lighter note.
i'm going to watch tee-vee later (i dont care!)

happyeighthmonthsary love. ((:

p.s: TOHYEWKEAT! bring me out in ur CAMRY after my exams!! i wanna sit in a BIG BIG car driven by SMALL BOY! ((:

the week in a flash

2008-10-05T21:59:00.002+08:00

WARNING: LONG & WORDY POST AHEAD...

this past week had been GREAT! (:

tuesday night was spent at jurong point with james, hui and b.
wanted to had dinner, catch a movie then head down to hortpark.
but remembered sig said that hortpark closes at 10pm, and we would be rushing for the movie,
we decided to just stayed at JP and have dinner & catch a movie. (:
had dinner at siam kitchen, all of us are boycotting it for its unreasonable prices and small portions!
movie was terrific! (: everybody out there, do catch 'house bunny', it's really a very bimbotic and no brainer movie. ((:

wednesday afternoon met up with the sec sch people and headed down to pitstop cafe.
something cropped up and they couldnt find our reservation so we ended up at settlers.
it was real fun and i really enjoyed playing with the people on my table, not forgetting that they were some of the ppl who made sec sch so lovely! ((:
got hooked onto UGLY DOLLS, and i can expect more of it coming whenever i visit wee's place! (: and it was the first time that everybody heard chun screamed like a girl! hahaha
after meeting them, went to lot 1 to catch 'my best friend's girl' with b.
the show was not bad, i guess? but hui & james totally boycotted it. heh, "ge hua ru ge yan" ba.

yesterday (saturday) went for my cousin's housewarming.
their place was really nice and i do agree with mummmy that it looked like a condo showflat.
but it got quite boring after a while cos most of the relatives weren't there.
went over to JP after that with mummy, my auntie and 'baby' cousin.
i hearts her to bits! (: but i heard she always gets bullied in sch.
"all you mean children out there, dont you dare bully my cousin!" humph!
after that went for converse SALE with b and rick!
before that we went over to sim lim to get their comp fixed. and they thought they got scammed by the person. heh.
the SALE was great! i hearts my buys! (: though none of the things were from converse, i realised. hahaha.
went over to the restaurant to have dinner! and it's quite nice, i must say. both the food and the place. (:

today (sunday) was a great day too.
it was my first time attending a korean-chinese style wedding! (:
and i hearts their costume. the food was chinese style so there really isnt much to comment about. but i was surprised that i finished quite a bit of the food. heh.

all in all, it's been a really fulfilled week although i think it's quite slacked too! heh.
will buck up and be more studious next week! (:

till then, take care everyone! (:

bday post'08! (:

2008-09-26T15:15:00.002+08:00

HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY TO ME! (:

can we like just treat this post as of 25th September? (:
anyways, if last year's bday celebration was a blast (which it was THANKS to many)
this year's one was more blast-y! heh. ((:

THANKS to YOU and all - vanny, tim, gina, gene, xin, pl, sx, hui, cc, james, sig, praba, jeremiah (if thats how you spell. praba's bestie), nellie, qianling, faizal, rachel, jason (rachel's bf)!!!
i sure hope i didnt leave anyone out!
and also THANKS to those who contributed in their gifts for me and/or those who cant make it - wee (you better meet me SOON! (:), sze, lynn, vanessa, shah, evon!

it was really a plesant surprise and/or shock. (:
i dont really know how to describe everything in words.
and i dont know if i can. but it was really great to see people who are impt to me - from sec sch to uni to be gathering tgt. though there was a downside to it - i cant really mingle with everybody all at the same time and all. but i think i did try to talk to everyone at least. (:

though the celebration started quite late, it was all worth it.
THANKS again TO ALL!!
your presence has already made my birhtday amazing! (:
and this really beats getting my license for a great bday pressie! (:

in case i dont look excited and all last night,
i need to emphasize that I AM SURPRISED! (:
but i guess i was more shocked.

alrights, i think i'm becoming rather repetitive now.
since i dont have all the pics with me to further elaborate!
so when the pics are with me, i'll update ya?
and TOHYEWKEAT! DONT BE MEAN AND FACEBOOK ALL PICS AND DONT SEND TO ME! BE NICE!

ohoh. another very random but happy thing:
praba wore the cap that i bought for him last night!
THANK YOU BRO! for everything! (:

AND THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO MADE THE EFFORT AND SPENT THE TIME FOR COMING DOWN LAST NIGHT.
AND TO YOU: FOR PLANNING EVERYTHING AND MAKING EVERYONE WHO KNEW KEEP IT TO THEMSELVES FOR SOOOOOO LONG!
THANK YOU YOU AND ALL! (((:

(quoted from sze & vanny): XOXOXOXOXO ((:

happy sweet twentieth to weewanqivanessa! (:

2008-09-15T09:15:00.007+08:00

HAPPY SWEET TWENTIETH BIRTHDAY

WEE WAN QI VANESSA! (:

we celebrated her birthday last wednesday.

took her to the flyer (yes hui i know, it's boring)

but it was her first time there and she was really very happy

or at least to me! hahaha.

oh, i have to say this, though it sounds super bimbotic -

WE HAD THE WHOLE CAPSULE TO OURSELVES! (:

for only 60 bucks instead of 1.5k.

thanks to this group of expats who were busy taking pictures behind us! (:

after that we went to marina square to have dinner.

then after that we went to shop abit then headed home. (:

thank you wee, for everything! (:

for always sticking by me and being there for me and always supporting my every decision! (:

and i'm really glad that you enjoyed yourself that day.

and i'm proud that i'm able to not leak out anything this time round! (:

flor hugs vanessa! ((:

us (the retarded me)

wee with her 1st present! (:

welcome back to reality

2008-08-03T17:06:00.004+08:00

SCHOOL's reopening tml.
but guess what?
my lappy just crashed TODAY!
how coincidental huh?

am kinda fed-up over the crashed lappy.
cause i really have tons of stuff inside.
all my SCHOOLSTUFF, PICTURES, and what nots.
i really feel like dying.

but after thinking for a while, it might not be that bad.
maybe it's a sign that i should start anew and all.
haha. trust myself to say that.

i guess it's really no point crying over spilt milk now that it's really crashed alr.
just needa spend time and MONEY to get it reparied asap. bah.

the month of aug is gonna be quite hectic.
i hope i'm able to manage my anger.
spare me whoever i flare up at for no reason.

welcome back to urbanisation!

2008-08-02T15:41:00.004+08:00

i am back from FOC08/09! (:
strictly speaking, i've been back for a few days alr. but heh.

i'm missing FOC alr! )):
even though we've got a lot of SHITS during the camp,
but all is well. ((:

even though we only had roughly 8hrs of sleep in 3 nights,
busy preparing the freshmen meals, logs for the diff events,
cranky behaviours, internal conflicts due to our cranky-ness,
sniffing, sneezing, coughing, losing our voices, self reprimandings,
tears, anger, fear and all the sai kangs,

i am so proud to say that:

FOC0809 was a success with a bunch of newbies/freshmen being in the planning comm, with not much guidance from seniors! (:

although we feel that we havent really enjoyed much throughout this camp,
but we were really glad and happy and proud to hear that our freshmen this year
enjoyed the camp thoroughly! ((:

TOGETHER FOREVER WITH LOVE! (:

THE ORACLES aka OPMC.

will upload the rest of the photos when i get them.
but that would mean quite a long long time! haha.

oh wells, sch is starting in 2days! ):
i sure hope everything turns out fine! (:

chitty-chatty flor

2008-07-19T23:28:00.002+08:00

i'm back! (:

have been feeling very lazy to blog recently.
was actually thinking of shutting down my blog. haha. sounds very 'san fen zhong re du' but oh wells.
until the day i really find it a hassle to blog, i wont shut it down YET.

yest went back to sch for the deg. FOC registration.
and while waiting for the freshies to come for registration, have been talking alot to everybody.
and at that moment, i felt revived!

i realised i havent talked much to other people during this hols.
for a moment i thought i've just lost the ability to talk to people. heh.
it sounds kinda stupid, but yeah.
and today met up with xin and jeremy for a while to chat!
it really really feels very good! ((:

okay, i'm gone.
need my sleep, lest they say i look paler. hee.

love is in the air! (:

2008-06-08T23:16:00.002+08:00

love is in the air! (:

i simply adore my parents & weewee! ((:

went for carwash today.
and when daddy went to pay for the carwash,
i suddenly thought of times when we were younger.
daddy will always bring kor kor and me for car washes at petrol stations.
whenever he comes back from the kiosk, before the wash,
daddy will always buy us sweets. (:

anyways, i was thinking if daddy will get me sweets this time round
and when he came back into the car, indeed.
he bought me mentos grape! (:
though it isnt the sweet that he used to buy for me,
but at that moment, i felt SO blessed.
thank you daddy! ((:

met up with weewee after dinner just now.
she said it seems like we havent met up for a very long time.
and i'm glad i met up with her today.
i was super duper happy for her
when she told me what had been happening in her life. ((:

i think i'm a bit too happy. heh.
cos she seem like her normal self!

and we went to take our first neoprint together, after knowing for so many years!
hahaha. and took photos from her polaroid camera with pooh bear frames!! (:

i always love bonding and catching up sessions with my love! (:

P.S. wee wanqi vanessa! if ever you feel like talking about anything,
just say it okay! and always remember, we are here for you! love you
my love! take care and i'll see you soon! ((:

thank you Lord for putting all these people in my life!

mid year reflection

2008-06-01T21:25:00.002+08:00

i always remember how i anticipate the new year that's going to come before me on 31st december.
i always thought that no matter how bad the current year is, it's coming to an end in no time.
and the next year will definitely be a better year for me.

but as i reflect on the past 6 months, and also some other years, i realised it aint as 'perfect' as i had anticipated.
however, i do realised that by the end of every year, things that happened more often than not, make me a stronger person through and through.
so even though things may not be going smooth and all, i still thank God that He put me through all these, letting me learn from every, and any situations possible.

taking a moment to reflect on these past 6 months, i received a revelation.
that throughout these months, i encountered friendships, relationships as well as kinships 'problems'.

FRIENDSHIP
friends mean alot to me.
and i always thought i would uphold to this principle that
i would be there for them.
but i realised recently that i seem to have been neglecting them.
and because of two incidents, one whereby a friend got very affected by a decision i made
and another one where my trust for another friend got misplaced,
i realised that i'm starting to keep everything to myself.
and i really mean everything,
i just stop opening up to my friends. and dont do 'regular chats' with them.
i do feel guilty about these though.
but i dont know how much more courage i need to open up again.
but i will try.

RELATIONSHIP
i realised i dont talk about this very much in my entries.
i somehow feel that where affairs of the heart matters,
it's easier to 'whine' to people face-to-face.
[sorry to those whom i've whined to. heh. but you all know i do appreciate it right? (:]

and i always thought that the people werent right.
but i came to realise that maybe after all, the cause of everything is me.
maybe it's because i feel that nobody out there is capable enough to help me share my burden (if you know what i'm talking about) because i feel that i, myself aint capable enough of doing that.

maybe, just maybe, i dont want to add on to others' burden.
and yes, if YOU happened to read this, i guess i dont want to add on to your burden,
and especially yours because i know yours is a rather huge burden on its own already.

KINSHIP
it was just a few days ago that i thought my life was gonna crash for a second time
after last december.
i always remind myself that i ought to cherish and not take for granted people who are around me, especially my family.
but i realised that many a time, it's them that i still take for granted.
and it's only until something 'big' happened that you realised how important they are to you.
and how life would be if anything ever descend them.
but i guess it's natural for humans to just take things or people for granted, in one way or another huh?

alrights. enough ramblings.
i cant believe i am going to have 4hrs of tuition straight tml. ):
which means 4hrs and more of standing! ):

vunlerability

2008-05-31T23:01:00.003+08:00

i thought i was gonna stay strong when i heard what happened.
but i didnt. extreme scenarios kept flashing through my mind.
i couldnt help but fear, tear and worry about how life would be like w/o her.

thank God everything seem to turn out fine.
i promised myself to always be there for her whenever she needs me.
no matter how tired i may be, or how much i dread going down just to meet her.

i love you, really do.
life seems so meaningless w/o you.

updates + food for thought

2008-05-28T15:29:00.003+08:00

the past week was ...
fulfilling, happy and nice i think?
generally that is.
cos at some point, i was feeling low low low low low..
but everything's fine now. (:

driving under my instructor's boss was good. (:
after 5mths of driving, i finally received constructive comments.
if any of you all wanna know why i said finally, ask me and i'll tell you.
i will conquer reverse parking proportionally!!

last friday was a super hectic day.
went for dental appt in the morning. the dentist looks kinda young.
quite cute too. heh. and he found a tiny cavity! ):
and said 'missing' 4 times.
hmmmm? is it abnormal that your wisdom teeth arent out at this age yet??
needa go back to fill up my cavity, on the first day of practicum.

went to meet ally aka 'xiao bu dian' for lunch before heading to my practicum (pri) school for induction prog.
i miss her and the kids sooooooo much. (:
and i felt super extra when i was at the induction prog.
i thought only the deg. ppl will be there but the dippers were there too.
so i was the only one, out of 8 ppl who was under-dressed for the induction prog. ):
but the 2 things that made me happy were:
1) the school is filled with purple handrails! ((:
2) i'm 'posted' to be in the morning session! (:
so i guess it wasnt that bad after all.

rushed down for tuition at mindstretchers.
2 new kids to the class.
they seem less noisy that day i think?
and as usual, like the first lesson, my class was the latest to end.
sometimes i wonder how the other teachers can finish within the time frame.
cos the time allocated for each worksheet + the kids' ability/speed to complete each worksheet + the time needed to explain certain rules varies.
is it me who's very naggy? i hope not!

weekends were spent marking the kids work.
went to have sushi for brekkie+lunch+hightea. (:
and i actually left my phone at home!
thinking that if i wait patiently at our meeting place, everything will be fine.
sorry to have made you worried! :s

had lunch with wang hui at causeway bef heading down to mindstretchers to relief chau choon's class cos he's back for reservist on mon.
i miss hui a lot! ((:
and i always have a good laugh whenever she complains about her clubbing experience!
hahaha. one day i should tag along to see if it's true or even worst than what she said! heh.

chauchoon's class of pri ones were kinda cute.
less noisy than my class.
and i finished 10mins before time! (:
met up with my new class' teacher.
kinda stressed aft that.
firstly, cos they're pri 6.
then, the teacher was the centre's best teacher.
oh my! God, i pray for your favor and the favor of mankind to be upon me! :s

then went for dinner with tim and b.
i love the laksa at lot 1. (:

yesterday met up with pl and leen.
we waited quite a while for leen.
and ended up eating alot!
and laughed at stupid stuff.
other than pl's gingerbread woman aka pl herself
and also this girl who had a lollipop hairclip clipped at the middle of her tucked-back fringe!
hahahaha.

sometimes i dont know why i get affected by ppl who seem very unfriendly.
i wasnt the one who wanted to shift the meeting to next week
and it wasnt intentional for me to have typos in my email. :s

birthday post. (:

2008-05-21T09:48:00.009+08:00

HAPPY SWEET

20TH BIRTHDAY

TO

LIM JIA XIN! (:

hope you're having lots of fun

and enjoying your time spent

over in malaysia with your

boyfriend.

this year is the first year you're

spending your birthday

overseas, away from us,

away from our 'traditional'

way of spending or rather

celebrating your birthday.

it feels kinda weird,

like something's missing.

I MISS YOU! (:

i love you. (:

2008-05-20T17:34:00.002+08:00

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

- Jonas Brothers (when you look me in the eyes)

thank you for everything.
especially the past few weeks.
it's been a long time since i felt so carefree and stress-free.
you're the light that makes my darkness disappear. (:

scientificity vs. supernatural

2008-05-20T17:11:00.003+08:00

an earthquake, with a magnitude of 7.8/9 on the Ritcher scale,
happened in Szechuan, China.

a cyclone, that almost swept the city away,
happened in Myanmar, Vietnam.

seems like current 'hot' case studies that
geography students can use for examination purposes

or not?

i've been wondering these few days if these disasters are just certain abnormal behaviours of nature or if Judgment Day is drawing near.
are these disasters a reflection of what we, humans have done to Mother nature?
or are these warnings from Him that we ought to do something to heed the call?

bad news = good/top news.
i finally understood why some people rather not learn of every day's news.
i guess this way, they wont feel for the victims/casualties reported in the news
and can then live their own carefree, stress-less life.

scientificity or supernatural?
thought-provoking or random?
you decide.

one blessed day, with thanks to Him!

2008-05-04T23:23:00.002+08:00

i finally found something worthwhile to blog about
after getting kinda sick with blogging all the mundane stuff that fills my life.

today will definitely be one of the days that i'll etch in my memory for life!
i suddenly feel so blessed in ONE day.
just spending the day away with all my loved ones.
(guess that's also part of the reason why i cried just now - too happy? heh.)

today is liushumin's flight to the states.
decide to 'see' her off at the airport.
and i felt kinda bad, at first, that i had to 'lao dong' the whole family to go all the way to the airport just to have lunch. but in the end, it wasnt that bad, cos i spent quality time with them! (:

anyways, it was ard 11:43am when we were on our way there.
daddy was asking what time is van's flight. then i said 2:40pm.
daddy's reply made me panicked. he said i wont be able to make it to see her off alr.
then i said: 'but she said she's going to reach the airport ard 12 plus'
and i was very paranoid throughout the whole trip there.

and liushumin, is you get to see this,
i prayed to God throughout the whole journey to let me at least see you one last time before you fly. i know it sound kinda ridiculous but that's what i did. heh.

SO. when i reached the airport, i checked the big big board (though i dont know her flight details) and ventured my way to the check in row that i think is quite likely to be hers.
then i called her for the dunno how many times and finally it got through.
and she told me she wasnt there yet. PHEW!

so then, to cut the story abit shorter,
she came, and i met her. passed her the stuff and decided to leave first.
cos i know i'll cry if i waited for her to go into the departure gates.

LIU SHUMIN VANESSA,
i'll miss you when you're in the states.
and you dont know how touched i was when i saw your tag.
have lotsa fun over there, as well as enjoy your well-deserved break! ((:
i hope 3 months will come and go asap!

then the whole family went to have lunch at T3.
after which, we headed to macs for desserts and drinks.
and we took photos! and i suddenly feel like i'm a tourist in singapore!
haha. how ironic.
but like i said, it was extremely GOOD to have spent quality time with them! ((:

then headed over to vivo just now for dinner and movie.
finally had some quality time spent tgt after sooooooooooooooooooooooo long.
the movie was quite nice. though we thought it was a horror movie in the first place. haha.
Over Her Dead Body is rather sweet and touching i think. (:
went to window-shop abit after the movie before heading home.
it was on our way home that i suddenly feel that i haven't cried in a while.
so then i just felt like crying,
other than feeling rather happy about today, i just feel like crying for no apparent reason.
i think i'm weird. but i think sometimes we do have such moments, dont we?

i want to give thanks to God for today.
thank Him for blessing me with the chance to see van.
and more importantly the chance to spend quality time with my loved ones.
You are really amazing!
and i dedicate this day to You!
Amen.

okay. i think i'm done for this super long entry. (:

my phone is being very cranky to me nowadays!
i think it's cos i'm harboring thoughts of changing it. ):

and one last thing.
i'm SERIOUSLY in need of a job.
some help here, anybody???

oh oh, one last thing, for real.
CONGRATS in advance to LIM JIAXIN
for finishing your exams tomorrow! (:

@#$%^&*!

2008-04-22T17:16:00.002+08:00

@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!
only the start of my 3 months holidays and i heard something disappointing!
pissed. with myself.
disappointed. in her.
thankful. to nellie. (:

this is the ONLY time i'll ever allow myself to make such a huge, grave mistake.
never again will i be so stupid to trust people too easily and let them in about everything, or things which i think is important to me!

lucky her that it's the start of hols and i dont have to see her for the next 3 months.
3 months for me to calm down, think rationally and HOPEFULLY get over it.

on a lighter note, my practicum sch (pri) is out.
thankfully the school called me, so i have one less school to call! (:

LIM JIA XIN!
ALL THE BEST FOR EXAMS!
study hard and do your best for ur papers! ((:

gene's bday celebration

2008-04-12T18:11:00.006+08:00

we celebrated gene's bday today! (:
it was a flawless plan, or maybe quite flawless.
gene didnt suspect anything AT ALL! ((:
we all really hope you had fun gene!

lets just let the pics do the talking!! (:

xin and i had a little fun with gene - treasure hunting! (:
took us ard an hr to roam ard lot 1.
and ard 15mins for me hogging in the toilet's cubicle!

the bday boy thinking of where the next clue leads to.

taking pic while we're 'treasure-hunting'

our final destination - pizza hut.
with the clue of a house + a mouse! ((:

tim with his pizza.

ade with her pizza.
P.S: ade! see how nice of me to upload the nicer pic instead of the other one! hee! miss you! (:

gene & ade

xin & me

tim & ade

timmy & me

the cake cutting!! (:

the bday boy making a wish

him about to blow the candles

him cutting the cake

group photos

group photo w/o tim & 1/4 of xin

group photo, with tim & gim looking more like the bday boys than gene himself! (:

and finally, when we're about to leave. (:

ade & me

and the bday boy himself & me & his gift from us! ((:

we really hope you enjoyed this day! (:
it took us a lot of sweat and pain and everything
and we're glad that you appreciate it,
other than NOT brining that board to town! *humph*

life's been nice, sweet and blissful and everything with you.
i appreciate everything that you have done for me.
lets hope it stays this way for as long as possible. ((:

it's time to hit the books now!
okay, after dinner that is! (:

mugging spree~

2008-04-03T14:29:00.002+08:00

'WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE??!!', says the mind.
but my sponge-like mind, the fingers clicked & typed faster.
so i'll be off here in a jiffy, i promise! (:

after this post, i'll be off on a mugging spree,
hence the new name for my mind: sponge-like!
to absorb all the required info that i need for EXAMS!
18 more days to F-R-E-E-D-O-M!!
gonna work my ass off for ka-ching then! (:
i'm appealing for ppl to work tgt with me please!
to save the no life ah florr!

anyways,
TOHYEWKEAT if you are reading this,
pssst. you know what?
whatever you wrote on ur last entry?
that's freaking exactly what i've been feeling since school started too.
what's with all those 'snowballers' in singapore when it doesnt even snow here!
alrights, that was random, but i understand what you're going through.
trust me, i do!
but, we'll go through this tgt alrights?
rmb what we all said to each other 2yrs ago some night at macs after mugging our ass off for As with xin??
yeah, that will come true for all three of us! i believe that, and you ought to! (:
30th april!! you'll make it through. have faith in yourself! 0 demerit pts from circuit lor. you'll make it! then aft that you can drive me around! ((:
CHEER UP BRO, EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE! ((:

oh wells, thats act the reason why i came to blog.
nothing much to blog abt my life.
been having the urge to blog. but whenever i log in, the urge just seems to fade off.
i've been fine though, just stressed up with studies.
other than that everything is fine, i guess?
or perhaps just one/two things thats been bugging me.
but i guess it's just me reading too much into stuff.

has it always been this way?
that i'll say: i miss you
and you'll just smile?
i miss having lunches with you in school.
i miss us singing out loud tgt in your car.
i miss going to random places in your car.
i miss all the late night talkings over the phone.
will it ever still be the same?
i pray it will...

officer comms ball! (:

2008-03-23T10:44:00.007+08:00

finally! (: blogger let me upload pics! heh.
this will take a while then i promise i'll head back to work! (:

22nd march 2008, saturday - officer comms ball at shangri la hotel.

a function that i would want to attend & i had fun then, no doubt. (:

happy commissioning to tim & jon! (:

the ambience there was nice. i like.

the food was o-k-a-y. i especially like the dessert.

the main course was not bad too.

the hotel's toilet is super nice!

i wanted to take a pic in there but there were quite a few ppl. heh.

only managed to take a few pics cos jon was saying we're like some tourists if we keep taking pics! hahaha.
there you go, enjoy~ (:

the nice display at our table! (:

the next few pics are the door gift that the guys get.

the top of the beer, which says 'infantry' instead of heineken.

the front view.

the back view.

the dessert! *yum yum*

GINA! (:

BUDDY! (:

the sweet couple! (:

group photo! there's jon, me, gina, & tim! ((:

after the function's activity was nice&sweet. ((:
sorry that we wasted $23.60 for nothing though!

the concoction of bombay sapphaire + davidoff fragrance is nice. i like.

but not to often please! heh. (:

i know i've been very stressed up & snappy & whatnots.

THANKS for being patient with me. ((:

TOHYEWKEAT is back! (:
lets meet up soon! this weeekkkk. i promise! ((:
OEI! that void that you feel? it's a psychological thing!
dont think of it, then it will disappear!
11 more mths! and everything will be over!
hang in there bro! (:

photosphotos & appreciations! (:

2008-03-16T01:31:00.004+08:00

i finally got hold of SOME of the pics that we took that day we had a gathering! ((:
kop-ed from chun's blog thou. heh.
there you all go, enjoy the pics! ((:

oh my! look at chun (the orange guy!). super gay pose lor! no wonder you have so MANY friendster requests from gays bro! hee. (:

group photo: there's me, chun, seng & seng's gf - sze ling!
thou i think i look kinda weird in this pic.

okay. this pic is SO MUCH better than the other one!

the couple! (:

seng & me.

and the act cute photo of chun & me!
look at my legs! so far apart lar! super unglam!

and i found this on one of my sec sch friend's blog.
i thought it was super true and i just wanna take this chance to appreciate all those who have stood by me all these while! ((:
THANK YOU ALL
for being there when i needed you all.
for always being so patient with me thou i know i'm like a little kid almost all the time! heh.
for giving me reality checks when i'm irrational.
and for not being judgemental.
I LOVE YOU ALL TO BITS! ((:

A friend is...

Accepts you as you are
Believes in you
Calls you just to say ''Hi''
Doesn't give up on you
Envisions the whole of you

Forgives your mistakes
Gives unconditionally
Helps you
Invites you over
Just be with you
Keeps you close at heart

Loves you for who you are
Makes a difference in your life
Never judges
Offers support
Picks you up
Quiets your fear

Raises your spirit
Says nice things about you
Tells you the truth when you need to hear it
Understands you
Values you

Walks beside you
X-plain things you don't understand
Yells at you when you don't listen
Zaps you back to reality

mia-ing

2008-03-14T17:15:00.002+08:00

the blog looks dead...
havent really have the time to blog about the mundane stuff that i do everyday.
assignments are due in no time, 3 more weeks i think?
and 2 of the assigns. are those which i just cant motivate myself to do it, much less do it well.
i hope i get at least C for those two modules like PLEASE! *prays HARD*
i cant wait for those modules & this sem to end!
it's super draining, and wearing me out!!! ):

exams are drawing near too! argh!
i really hope i have the motivation & time to revise thoroughly bef the actual paper.
may His wisdom & peace be with me! (:

driving has been o-k-a-y, i guess?

drove the car super close to the curb and bump into the curb on wed i think?
haha. got scolded by alot of people for doing that. heh.
i'll be careful next time. (:

today was alright until when i was about to make a right turn.
instructor & me were stepping on the brake pedal at the traffic light.
then the light turned green, so i lifted my foot off the brake pedal.
then i was like: 'eh, how come the car not moving?'
then i look at instructor.
shit! she doze off with her foot still on the brake pedal!!
i was like: 'hmmm. hmmm. lao shi...'
then i panic. the car behind was honking alr lor.
then she woke up, lifted her foot off the brake pedal just as the car behind was cutting me on the right!
got honked again plus an angry stare.
but she's forgiven cause she took pills for her cold bef that, which apparently causes drowsiness.

anyways, all those above werent really why i came to blog! hahah.
just being the usual naggy me. heh
had dinner with gene & xin yst.
it was nice meeting up with them and everything! (:

TOH YEW KEAT EUGENE: have a safe trip to & fro! just leave whatever worrying stuff behind and take a well-deserved break while you're in HK! just rmb to play safe (you know what i mean hor!). heh. and also hope the flu thingy over at HK isnt that major. ENJOY your vacation there! ((:

alrights. back to work... ):

i dont know how to emphasize this.
but really wanna thank you for EVERYTHING.
fast forward fast forward fast forward please! heh.

i'm fine

2008-03-09T14:51:00.002+08:00

alrights, with regards to the prev. entry, i must say, i'm a bit extreme.
but at that moment, it was how i felt lar. so yeah.
everything's fine now, i guess??

THANKS to everyone who cared, tagged and what nots! (:

to the kids: I'M fine alrights? hope you all did well for CA & yeah, study hard for PSLE! (:

to ade: THANKS ade! you nv fail to put a smile on my face when things dont seem to go right. I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU TOO! ((:

to vannn: oh my! i was darn busy when sch started and i didnt update you! *slaps herself* i'll get back to you in a while. i really missed you a lot! ((:

to xin & gene: THANKS for always being there and everything, for not judging me and for understanding me. i cant wait for THURSDAY! ((:

school, as usual, is hectic and draining.
i cant wait for exams to be over so that i can run away for a while.
i ran into jie shaeron that day at lot 1. (:
i miss her and both of us looked darn pale & tired lar.
may the Lord watched over her & her baby! i know how much that baby meant to her.

time to get back to work! ):

thanks for being a part of my life! (:

confused

2008-03-05T05:30:00.003+08:00

i cant remember when was the last time i cried so helplessly over the phone with xin there.
last year's feb? i think.

whatever that is happening now seems to be tearing me apart.
i really have no idea what i want to do now.
'TAKE THE EASY WAY OUT' was the voice within me.
'why do this to yourself? and let yourself be open to attacks and judgements? forget it flor. just leave everything when it's still early. let go and move on'
not the exact words that i hear, but it seems rather powerful even when typed out.

xin talked me into calling you and talk about everything
just so that the friendship might not be affected.
i took a lot of courage to make that call.
but was rejected - cause you were in the movies.
before i made my decision i tried calling you many times.
but you didnt pick up any of my calls.
perhaps just busy.
yesterday when i saw you, i kinda felt your reaction changed.
i knew then, that you were disappointed in me.
and there's nothing i can do.
you are important to me.
but i guess, at any point of time, this thing doesnt go two way.
maybe i shouldnt think too much.
maybe i shouldnt be so affected.
just maybe cause to you, i'm not so important

i guess that's all i wanted to say.
i dont feel like trying to make calls anymore.
cause for me, once it drags for a while, i cant then bring myself to breach the topic any further.
and so, i'll just leave it, even if it's only affecting ME!

driving's at eight.
i dont know how am i gg to concentrate in this condition.
maybe all i need is a car accident to wake up from everything that i'm gg through now. hah.

i so want to run away from everything.

week in a glance

2008-02-29T22:46:00.003+08:00

recess week was meant to be a no-life week - mugging & assignments
BUT i guess i practically wasted the week away.
oh my! only managed to get 2 assign done & 2 more UNTOUCHED! )':
i feel like kicking myself hard in the stomach for wasting my time away.

monday
tried doing my work and i THINK i finished a teeny bit?
and spent the rest of the day talking on the phone! *slaps herself*

tuesday
forced myself to do work and managed to finish one major assign.
and spent the rest of the day talking on the phone again!

wednesday
half slacking and half doing my work
and i think i talked on the phone AGAIN!

thursday
sentosa with hui! ((:
tanning and working out [she's weird. and my legs are aching from running on the sand! ):]
I LOVE HER COMPANY!!
we talked about everything and i really agree that life would be diff in sch w/o her. (:
[p.s: praba, i'm sorry abt the beach outing, we'll go tgt soon! (:]
then dinner with chun, seng & seng's gf!
had sushi tei at vivo.
it was fun catching up with them and everything!
thank God for seng's gf cause at least she understands what i am saying
while the two guys were very blur and slow at getting my points.
went to take random candid photos, will be uploaded soon.

LAI HONG SENG:
bro, thanks for everything.
NS is gg to be tough but i know you'll pull through.
i wont forget how the guys will always bully me and you'll always be siding me.
thank you! (:

and today was practically a non-working day too.
went for movies after driving.
then had dinner with vanny! (:
i miss that girl a huge lot.

VANESSA SOH QIANYI:
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!
i know i've said that alot of times but still, thank YOU!
you seem like the only person who understands how i feel
and what i'm gg through now and all.
i really thank God for putting you into my life 7 years ago!
and through you, i've known Him. (:
please meet up often! iloveyou! *HUGS* ((:

lovely vanessa & me! ((:

our paper hearts to each other! (:

breakfast with wee & stephie tml morning
and we're going for foot therapy after that
so that means it's most prob gonna be a non-work day again

i so needa get my butt down to my work on sunday.

the past few days felt so surreal.
i'll try my best to make a decision soon.
but THANKYOU for these past few days. (:

and to someone whom i considered quite impt:
even though i told myself it might not require any reply and all,
it's quite hurting to know that you didnt reply.
i guess i'm just in self-denial - that you're just busy not to reply or spend time with me.
and i seriously dont know why i feel this way.
i wished things were like before when we started knowing one another.

selfish flor! ):

2008-02-26T22:49:00.002+08:00

i guess the 8th deadly sin is selfishness.

because i dont want myself to get hurt,
i chose to run away from everything.
i talked myself out of the whole thing
because i was unsure of myself, of us, of the future and everything.

thanks xin for being there, as always. (:
thanks for being there when i feel that my life is crumbling.

happy bday KORKOR! (:

2008-02-24T14:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY TO SIEW SIWEI BENNY! (:

i know i have never said these to you, and i know you will hardy come across this.
but as i mature, i guess it's always a blessing in disguise to have you in my life.
although there ARE times when you really drive me nuts and what nots,
i realised that, after all, you ARE important to me!
and i've never said this before, but ILOVEYOU! (:
i hoped you enjoyed your day today!

rejection

2008-02-23T16:30:00.002+08:00

finally celebrated suxian's and peiling's bday.
luckily everything went smoothly. (:
photos and details will be up later.

a great big thank you to all the staff who made things go smoothly.
and thank GOD for the small and short drizzle only. (:

it was really nice be to at sentosa with the girls after soo long.
every moment (stupid, touching, funny etc.) will be etched in my memory for life!
even though i did ALOT of outrageously stupid things (p.s: girls, it's a secret among us okay? PLEASE dont let it out!), i still had fun with them.
really love their company a lot, and yes, miss them a lot too.

i love the night life in sentosa!
the breeze, the beach, the lightings and everything! (:
if i am rich enough, i'll buy a house at sentosa cove! (:

rejection is never sweet.
i'm sorry i had to do it and i hope you didnt drink too much yst.
if it makes you feel better, then stay away from me.
but i really like having you as a friend.

CNY visiting

2008-02-16T23:16:00.002+08:00

today was supposed to be my primary sch gathering.
they planned to go over to my chinese teacher's place for visiting.
but i skipped that cause i alr promised to go over wee's place for the annual CNY visiting.
but i'm determined to meet up with the primary sch ppl on 15th march! heh.

the annual CNY visiting at wee's place was fun! (:
i cant exactly remember when was the last time i saw shao min.
but every time we meet, we'll scream at the same time! and the place is always in the kitchen!
heh. last time was cause of this bug. this time round was the cork of a champagne. it flew all directions and HIT the back of my head & bounced off and landed somewhere.
that, was the funniest thing that happened and i doubt the 4 of us (shao min, wee, sista & me) will ever forget it. haha.
and i honestly think i cant gamble for nuts! lost my capital but xian was so nice to return 2 bucks each to shao min & me. so i lost like 8 bucks in total. that's quite sad! ):

while waiting for the rest to come, shao min & i were watching 'the game plan'
and i was really stuffing myself with BA KUA! heh. now i feel so fat! ):
but as i was watching the vcd, i realised how cute the rock is! haha. but that's that lor.

i like spending time with wee! (:
the bond between us can hardly be explained.
and to think she's gg overseas in a few years' time! ahhh. i'm dreading that day! )':
and babe, i'm really super ultra sorry about not gg to the preview with you!
luckily your colleague went with you, not i'll be condemned man. heh.
and and, i wanna go holidaying with you soon! when my exams end! ((:

happy valentine's day'08! (:

2008-02-15T14:25:00.005+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! (:

this year's v.day was different form the other years cause this year's v.day was spent with FRIENDS. (:

after lesson, went over to canteen to have the usual 'thursday meetings' (which is what he calls it) with praba! (:
since i thought he was not alone, i was rather late. but he WAS alone, and i felt so bad to make him wait for 25mins. heh, sorry bro! (:
as usual, it was fun chatting with him and all, this time round listening to him complain to me instead of the other way round. heh. and laughed at his silliness for remembering the wrong number of years he got tgt with his gf!

after that, walked over (it was a super ardous journey, even though it was rather windy) to van's hall to pass her some stuff. waited for her at her car and fed a few mosquitos! ):
it's been a while ever since we last talked for more than 5mins since IHG started and it was really nice to have spent some time with her. ((:
4th may sounds very far but i'm dreading it though i know she cant wait to take a break from everything.
i cant help it but feel very upset & affected by the way she phrased it and all.
3months&6days - that's even longer than IHG! ))':

had dinner with pl & sx at causeway.
the ruralite was fortunate to have been driven there, instead of travelling a looooong way (thankyou liushumin!).
everywhere was so crowded so we ended up at pastamania.
talked for more than 30mins then we decided to order our food.
after eating was second half of talking. heh.
and i saw alan & his gf. i was so lousy that i only saw him when he & his gf were leaving, got kinda scolded by that mean cousin of mine. haha.
luckily he wore a purple top, not i wouldnt even have noticed him!
we went to take neoprints then headed to lot 1 before we all went separate ways. (:

dinner! (:

camwhoring on the mrt platform
[p.s: look at the new addition to my phone! i like! (:]

pics in the train + candid shots! ((:

pics at lot 1. thankyou ww for being the photographer!

sx aka the tree.

pl & flor aka the leaves.

it was really nice to have spent quality time with them!

i had a great valentine's day this year! ((:

CNY post! (:

2008-02-13T09:18:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR

2008! ((:

i know this came abit late. but hey, CNY lasts 15 days right?
so it's still not too late.
and i sort of picked a 'good' day to post cos
today's the 7th day of CNY,
which is also known as 'REN RI'.
yeah. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL HUMANKIND! ((:

this year's new year, i felt, was very different.
it was very fulfilling.
though we didnt really go for visiting much, cos daddy's back was aching,
and we didnt really went to watch movies (like we did in prev. yrs) or went to river hong bao and all, i loved this yr's new year cos the family spent quality time together. (:

on the eve of CNY we went to chinatown.
bought stuff and ran into a few of mummy's friend.
i especially like this uncle ming. very happy-go-lucky man.
how i wished everyone woud aged like this happily! (:
that night, we had dinner together!
it's been a while since we all sat together on a table outside.

first day of CNY was spent at first uncle's place.
this year we didnt go over to 3rd uncle's place - no more pizzas for lunch, and sadly, no more ah po.
but lunch at 1st uncle's place was good! and we had so many things to eat - yusheng, desserts, CNY goodies & BA KUA! (:
it was nice seeing the younger generation gathering together again.
and very soon, 5 more months, we'll be meeting again for our eldest cousin's wedding! (:
that night, the whole family sat down together to watch tv! (:
a very rare thing in the family as well - i wanted to take a pic of us but i told myself that even though a picture paints a thousand words, pictures that are etched in my memory will worth more than that! ((:

the rest of the CNY hols were spent like that abovementioned.
i really loved it alot.
the things that we do may sound very common in other families, but to me, as long as there are times where we could do them, i'm alr very contended (and even when i typed this para, tears of joy are rolling down my cheeks. heh.)

however, the downside of this hols and all - schoolwork! ):
the last few days of CNY hols was chiong-ing work ALL THE WAY!
and when i went back to school, people around haven't been in their best of mood either. ):
BUT, like what limjiaxin said, we should always look on the bright side of things!

yeah, like i'm really looking forward to meeting suxian & peiling tml.
and on saturday, there's CNY celebration at wee's place - meeting the sec sch gang & shaomin.
and meeting gene soon for movies.
[P.S: gene! i'm not sure if the promotion is still on, but can we book 4tixs for CJ7 at GV? then we get can the alien puppy stuff toy! hee. (:]
and meeting the girls soon soon. next week please. (:
and movies with anu - LEAP YEARS! [i like wong lilin (:]

see, so many good things to look forward to!
and i havent really do anything for V.day for my friends.
and i'm still contemplating what to do. and V.day is like TML?
we'll see what i can think of later in the day then. heh. (:

may the year of the rat be a fulfilling and happy year for everyone out there! (:

preCNY cele & spring cleaning! ((:

2008-02-05T20:51:00.000+08:00

i spring cleaned my room today! ((:
it's definitely all prepared for CNY

i dont know why but spring cleaning the room brightens up my mood!
it's like discarding all the unhappy stuff and welcoming all the good stuff that are coming MY way. heh.

went xin's place for steamboat with PRF on sat.
it was nice meeting up with them and knowing that they've all been fine.
i didnt do much talking, just kept drinking the soup
and dumping corns to xin. heh.
pl & sx asked if i was okay cause they thought i looked sad that day.
thanks for the concern but i'm really fine,
just perhaps exhausted and a teeny weeny bit dreading the amt of work waiting for me at home.
and to add on to that, XXX has to bring her readings there to stress me!
alrights, kidding babe, you know i dont mean it ya? *HUGS*

i really really really missed school with them.
leen asked where in PJ do we miss the most.
most of them said canteen, leen said toilet, but to me, it's the grand stand lar!
the grand stand that we spent time chitchatting away, not that we didnt chitchat in the canteen (all the time), but i really miss those times.

i hope we'll always rmb each other and make time for meet-ups!
i missed and loved you all to bits!! ((:

homemade yu sheng by xin's mummy! (before)

during. just look at all our clumsy hands. heh.
but still. "lao ar lao ar" (:

look at liyi. tsk! haven't even start and she's hovering over the steamboat alr. hee.

suxian trying to take liyi and whatever am i doing in the pic??

liyi & leen! (:

peiling, xin & suxian! (:

group photo! ((:

LIM JIA XIN!!
have a safe trip to and fro.
do enjoy urself when you're celebrating CNY there.
miss you! *HUGS*

updates.. (:

2008-02-01T10:59:00.000+08:00

yayness! it's FINALLY friday aka no school day! (:
hectic week in school, draining me and killing all my brain cells.
5 assignments to be done & handed up by the end of feb!
argh! there goes my CNY hols! )):

i SO need to get started.
i'm only halfway through the first assign and the easier part alr took me 2 whole days! ):
i sucked at integrating IT into classrooms can? argh, spare me from all the IT stuff! i'm an IT caveman!
after all the whinings, i STILL have to do the assign cos it's 40% of the final grade.
someone save me! ):

oh wells. like i said, it's a hectic, kill-the-brain-cells week.

monday: ALS research paper 'breifing'. the broad topics given looked so narrowed down to me! i dont know how to go about narrowing it down further! ): and proposal's due in 4 weeks.

tuesday: i can't rmb what i did, other than setting a time for FOC comm meeting the next day and coming home to bury myself into assign. oh oh. i rmb now! i saw a super cute guy in sch! (: but i bet he isn't from our sch, like what seeming & nellie said. haha.

wednesday: FOC comm meeting. it was o-k-a-y. settle some of the apointments and had lunch with hui aka sick chicken for the week. hmm, had some heart-to-heart talk with chau choon & yan ping after lesson. headed to pastamania for dinner. sweet friends i have. they came over to Lot 1. ((: had a quick dinner bef yanping rushes off. and i went on a shopping spree! haha. i got a shock when i saw my bank acc yst.

thursday: FOC comm meeting with the seniors. hmm, there was some conflict about the appointments. apparently it wasn't fair. so we decided to open up every posts again. i dont like such power struggle. it was highlighted umpteen times that it's just gg to be a NAME. oh wells. had a chat with shah. and i met a few more sweet people yst! (:

going over to Lot 1 in a while to run some errands then coming back to start on my second part of the first assign. hopefully i get something done! *crosses her fingers*
class reunion dinner at 7pm later!
thank God they'll be coming over to my place for 'ji cha'. then i wont have to strain my injury further. (:

steamboat with PRF tml! i can't wait! ((:

i thought it was going to be tough moving on. but i guess practice makes perfect.

muscle tear

2008-01-24T00:21:00.000+08:00

driving was fun - i went onto the road today! (:
but almost every single soul laughed out real loudly when i told them i injuried my leg during driving.

and in fact, i did injuried my leg - i tore my left upper thigh muscle. ):
the sinseh says i shouldn't overstrain it further - no jumping, running, walking too much & climbing of stairs (but... stairs are the ONLY thing that can be found in school)

driving isn't that tough. it's just me being very tense up as usual.
so that explains why i tore my muscle.
simply put - i brought this upon myself. ):

sometimes i really wonder if i'm just a jinx or what.
cos my poor hui was feeling very down yst too.
but she said something which i thought was rather sweet.
even without guys, we still have each other.
because of all the sweet people that surrounds me,
i truly feel blessed.
thank you every single soul out there who cares & worries for me.
i love you all! ((:

CONGRAULATIONS TO SOO SU XIAN
for making it into the kayaking exco!! (((:
and thanks again for that sweet personal msg. (:

letting go

2008-01-22T23:18:00.000+08:00

okay, so i'm going to break my resolution of not having an emo entry, today.
but whatever had happened today hit me real hard, emotionally.
since it's already over, i see no point in dwelling too much into it, it'll just make me feel worst.

the description that one of my friend said today was so apt.
it's as though i let myself stand in the middle of the hockey field to fend for myself - so vulnerable.

it had been a long day today, and i'm really worn out physically and emotionally.

if only crying everything out would make me feel better.
if only whining to people around (many many thanks to you all) would make me less angry with myself.
if onlys...

it's not about possessing him, it's about him being happy with the one who will bring him happiness - just that i'm not that someone.

on a lighter note, AGM was alright.
and yes, i'm in the FOC '08 comm!
and some arts jamboree thingy that's apparently going to be the rather BIG thing in JUNE 2009!
yep, i'm starting to shift my focus away from you and onto other stuff.

movie with hui & hema on friday!! ((:

on a very very random note.
if you know who you are, i felt super distant from you.
is it just me or is it just you being busy and all?
i dont know.
things will get better after you're done with ur stuff right?
i sincerely hope so..

reminise

2008-01-20T00:54:00.000+08:00

the week at a glance.

monday.
driving was postponed. was rather cranky that day esp after being 'sacked' from tuition. ):
had dinner with xin & gene. was very apologetic towards them for they waited almost an hr for me. hopefully the brownie made up for everything. heh.
and and, i saw a rainbow that day. stupidly made a wish. (:

tuesday.
nothing interesting.
met gene for lunch and was psycho-ed into doing something rather silly.
thank goodness i seek 'advices' from people around before attempting to do that thing,
which obviously i didn't.
p.s : gene tagged & asked me to edit the ...rather silly. part. eh, i dont know how to edit leh. it sounds okay to me? haha. anyways, it's just gene psycho-ing me to tell someone something. does it sound better? haha

wednesday.
driving in the early morning.
stalled the engine thrice. and honestly, i felt rather pressured since my instructor's mummy's friend.
i guess he went home and vomitted quite a lot of blood.
risked my life among 32 sick chickens to help cc take his mc bef heading to sch for gesl meeting.
had quite a fun time during the meeting laughing at sigmund & spent almost 1/4 of the time stoning.

thursday.
in a struggle to decide what CS to take.
called pl to arrange for dinner with her, sx & xin ltr at night.
had a chat with praba after dont know how long! (:
dinner with the girls was amazing. really missed those times where we would just spend talking after eating and what nots. missed mugging together, snacking together, gossiping together.
i cant wait for 2nd february!!! ((:

friday.
driving with another instructor. yeah, i didnt feel very pressurised when he taught me. or maybe it was cause he didnt teach much! haha.
went to book TP test bef heading to school to drop the CS form. thank you daddy for sending me to & fro, even though he sort told me off - as to why i was still contemplating which sub to drop when i've alr made up my mind.
went town with darling wee ltr in the afternoon. (:
we stared at this boy playing the rubic thingy for a long time as we were amazed that he could figure the thingy twice. i told wee that i should go over and help him mess the thing up. heh.
the trip to town with wee was good. it sort of took my mind off certain things. (:
had a great dinner at the balcony. fulfilled my cravings for oreo cheesecake, even though the waitress laughed at me when she served us the desserts.

was up to nothing much today & perhaps on sunday as well.
another week of school is coming.
and it's time to get started on the assignments already. )):
looking forward to the coming friday - GESL dinner! ((:

silly me

2008-01-17T02:40:00.000+08:00

i had better stop myself now before history repeats itself and i get hurt AGAIN..

blogging day (:

2008-01-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

saturday's blogging day! (:
eh, maybe not exactly, just trying to doodle some time & run away form my readings for a moment. heh.

was supposed to be going wee's place yst but she has to work so i decided to head down to the national museum of singapore with the history ppl. in other words, i asked if i could tag along with them since i had nothing to do till 5.30pm & being the auntie-fied flor, the museum visit is free. (:
i used to think the museum is a rather sweet place to go dating. i still think so, just that you shouldn't pay too much attention to your companion(some device that's like your virtual guide) throughout the visit.
i paid quite a huge amt of attention to it & i got information overload in the exhibition! ): i took a seat at one of the corners, and almost fell asleep while listening to her explanation!
all in all, the museum visit was fun cause hema, hui & seeming were there! ((:

went over to wee's place today to bake & then help her clean up the utensils before helping her to choose what to wear.
during baking and all, i heard something very traumatising can?! i can't imagine that such sick ppl actually DO exist in the profession. totally spoils the image of the profession can?!
after everything, i was really very drained. wanted to go home and just sleep the night away but i had to rush down to jp - had my 2nd dinner & shopped awhile with daddy & mummy before heading home.

driving starts on mon!
early morning at 8am, going to drive a NEW car!
as i was telling wee, i feel all the jitters when i see the L plate cars drive past me.
and when van & sid say they'll see me on mon just now, i told them maybe not.
i guess i'm just nervous & all. bet i wont be able to sleep well tml night! ):

LIU SHUMIN VANESSA!!
if you ever come across this, i just wanna say I MISS YOU BADLY! )):
and honestly, i can't wait for IHG to end. but even before then, trust me, i don't dare to disturb you and all, afraid that you'll be busy with trainings and all the games, etc.
and when i have to hear from others that you aren't feeling good, it felt bad.
so if you ever have the time to browse through this, you had better make time for me after mid feb!
can't wait to see you on monday. and yes, i'll make sure i'll be in one piece to see you on mon! (:

one hour and 15mins more to your birthday.
hope you'll have a great birthday and may all your wishes come true! (:

first week of sch

2008-01-10T17:20:00.000+08:00

first week of school was.. overwhelming.
with tons of readings to be done, and assignments' deadlines scaring us.
timetable is _____. we're not allowed to change lec/tutorial slots.
so we're basically stuck with our lousy timetables for a sem.
all my modules for this sem are tough.
no wonder people said the first sem is always the honeymoon sem, i totally second that!

it's only the first week of school and already i'm lacking sleep.
i can't imagine how worn-out i'll look by the end of this sem. bah.

on a lighter note, at least i knew people in my tutorial groups.
seeing familiar faces make me feel at ease, not so much for the workload but at least for the company. (:

even though school's been tiring, the small stuff that you do always make my day. thank you! (:

life is really very vulnerable. i finally realised this that morning during the accident, thank God everyone was alright.
the look on that pedestrian's face had since never left my memory.
i feel that sometimes in life, we can be so aloof of everything that even after something major has happened, we'll still be unmoved.
i don't want to feel that way. i want to love, laugh & live life. (:

busy first week of 2008! (:

2008-01-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

the first week of 2008 in a glance. (okay, almost the first week) (:

wednesday. mummy&daddy's wedding anniversary & chau choon's bday. (:
went to town with yanping, tohjin & the bday boy to celebrate his bday.
kbox-ed for 2 hrs plus before going to take neoprints. we came to a conculsion that we need to master japanese in order to take neoprints without feeling silly. heh.
after that, they had been very nice as to go on a shopping spree with me before it was homesweethome! ((:

thursday. my first attempt at baking at wee's place. (:
she isnt a first-timer so she knew what she was doing but me? VERY VERY CLUMSY!
i stupidly tried to open a tray of eggs with that tray of eggs ON MY PLAM. so yep, as you can imagine, an egg flew out of the tray before it hit the floor with a rather loud sound.
but the process - with all the laughter & pespiration & nonsense - as well as the end results were satisfying! ((:

friday(today). bonding sessions. (:
spent time with wee in the late morning to afternoon. that poor girl had to walk around with me in her terrible heels. THANKYOU DARLING, SOOOO MUCHIE FOR THE COMPANY & DRIED MANGOS! ((:
then met peiling for dinner. walked around for a while before settling down for light dinner. as usual, i always like the time we spent together. THANKYOU DARLING FOR THE ZIPLOC BAGS (not the normal ziploc hor, it's an inside secret), SWEETS/CHOCS & THAT RED BEAN THING! ((:

i thank God for sweet friends and for the fulfilling time that i've spent before the new sem starts. ((: breakfast cravings for hotcakes tml will be fulfilled provided i can get up. heh.

HAPPY 2008! ((:

2008-01-01T16:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2008! ((:

the first day of a brand new year!
with a brand new year comes a new beginning, new perceptions of life, new dreams, new hopes, new visions, and everything new!
there are a few things that i'd like to accomplished within the year.

get my license
consistent work out with my new work-out companion (:
study hard
save
get a life

there're certain stuff that will always be on the list though, like being happy always, grumble less, spend more time with friends & family, etc. you know what i mean lar.
lessons learnt from the past year will only help us to grow more stronger.
may this new year be the best year yet for everyone out there!

HAVE A BLESSED NEW YEAR AHEAD! (:

rounding up 2007!

2007-12-31T14:00:00.000+08:00

when everything is coming to an end, we start to look at the beginning.
or rather, in the case, the process.

2007 was filled with mountains and valleys.
the depth of those valleys? like that of the black hole.
however, when asked as to which year i would like to relive, my answer is 2007.

2007 is the year that i've truly learnt how to be independent (in all aspects of life). been through, in my perception, the extremes of life - happiness vs sadness, rational & right vs irrational & incorrect decisions, etc.
but after everything, i do realise that all the setbacks this year had made me a much stronger person than i was in 2006.
and i really look forward to 2008 where i know circumstances will help me grow much more. (:

relief teaching in unity was the happiest thing that can happen this year. seeing the innocent faces of the kids really put my mind off the negative things. many a time i will just stare at them during assembly and smile - smiling at how they look at life, wishing that i could somehow still have their perception of life. having a bunch of caring colleagues was a plus point too. i really missed fridays-after-school-party with pat, eunice, yunyee, yvonne, dawn&xiuling. it's known that the most noisy 'alley' is our alley. (: i'm also very grateful to dawnsoh, shirley, vp&p for their guidance. especially to dawnsoh&shirley. i'll nv forget how both of them defended me against the vp&p even though i'm just a relief & the school can always replace me with another relief. thank you! (: this experience in unity really helped me alot in school now, and i'm really thankful for all the people that i've met there. ((:

orientation week in school was actually dreaded by me. but it turned out fine, or rather better than expected. even though i skipped FOC but i'm still thankful for the people that i've known during this sem. we worked together for presentations, assignments, planning our cip. we mugged together, where most of the time we sidetracked. heh. we wasted our long breaks away together in the lib's cafe. we laughed hard together or at one another. we encouraged one another. we dropped short & sweet msg to one another, letting them know we'll always be there for one another. and most of time, they listened to me complain & whine to them. even though it's only a short period of time, they have been looking out for me, taking in one another's shortcomings, and i dont know what else to say but a big fat THANK YOU! esp to those that i've worked with for presentations, assignment & CIP: priya, seeming, debbie & yanping (AED105), chauchoon, sidney & yanping (AAE101), hui, shah, binchuan & eleanor (AED102), melissa & ying hui (ALK101) & hui, yanping, cat, roopini, fizah, reena, raudah, liyana, sabby, sakinah, sherene, chihui, linna, hana, tohjin, chauchoon, sidney, praba, matt, ramesh, sigmund & last but not least our gesl faci: charles! (: (GESL)

the year ended with a blast! successful cip execution (C.H.O.C. MILK, gogogo!), and meet-ups with everybody. ((: even though another year has ended, meet-ups taught me something - true friendships will last even though time may pass. and the coming year will only make me put in more effort to keep our friendships going. (:

before the year comes to an end, i want to thank these people for what they've done for me in 2007.

a big, fat, huge THANK

YOU

to xin, peiling, suxian, gene, ade, hema, sidney, praba, tohjin, chau choon, hui, yanping, seeming, vanessa, wee, stephie, chunren, hongseng, enhua, joel, gina. thanks for being there when i'm really down & for encouraging me. thanks for making this year a memorable year even with all the unhappy memories, but hey, you people gave me much more happy memories to cover & hide those unhappy memories! (:

special thanks to limjiaxin: thank you for being there without fail when the world seem to be crashing on me - events that happened to make me wonder the existence of me in the world. even though it's always in the middle of the night, thanks for always being the first one there to comfort me, and reminding me that i'm stronger than i think i am. those times would have been unbearable without you there. i'll do my utmost best to be there for you as well, even when school starts for us, which means lesser time for us to talk on the phone and everything. thankyou SO much. (:

happy new year's eve to all! ((:

xie xie ni de hao

2007-12-28T15:32:00.001+08:00

i know, somehow, i've hurt you quite badly.
on the other hand, i'm not sure if whatever i have for him will last. but until it fades off, he's quite impt.
thanks for being so nice to me.

christmas gatherings! ((:

2007-12-27T16:36:00.000+08:00

merry MERRY CHRISTMAS '07!! ((:

okies, even though it's the 27th but christmas lasts 12 days right? so i'm still not that late. heh. (:
christmas this year was filled with gatherings. yayness! (:
i had fun this christmas. hopefully every christmas would be like this or even better! (:

22nd dec 'o7: sec sch class gathering in town! ((:
since they didn't allow any reservations in december, and we had too many people (first time so many people turned up for class gathering, kudos to wee!), we waited for about 1 & a half to 2 hours before we finally settled down and order our food.
after we've eaten, crapped and all, it was gift exchange. then cam whoring! haha.

here's everybody! ((:

paterson & david

chun & me. i stood behind him to make him look taller than me! heh.

left to right: claire, jingxian, yiying, esther & stephie

left to right: cheeki, yuppie & joven

one of my cam's flaws: you need to adjust the flash first before you put on anti-shake mode. that explains the dark pics of stephie & me, cause we only realised it aft the pic was taken.

what's 'blue stephie' trying to do? heh

finally. the one & only pic of the 3 of us for the night!
wee, stephie & me! ((:

the rest of the pics are in chunren's cammy. it'll take a while for him to upload all the pics though.
but i really had fun just hanging out with these people. (:

thank you wee wanqi vanessa for the purse! (:
thank you stephanie awyong for the book! (:

23rd - 24th dec '07: sleepover @ suxian's with PRF! (:

the most historical moment of the night! it doesn't look very clear on the pics but still...
TAY EILEEN FINALLY PIERCED HER EARS!
and to think when she told us it was magnetic earrings, sx & i believed her.
p.s: liyi! when is it gonna be ur turn?? heh.

my companion of the night! thank you suxian 'ge ai' to me for the night. heh.

xin with the mini strawberries from cameron highlands!
she said they were mostly sweet. but most of us ended up eating a lot of the sour ones.

do, re, mi.. mi, re, do..

no. 1 highlight of the night - writing our resolutions for year 2008, what we want to accomplish by the year 2012, & some predictions.
it seriously gave me a feeling that i'm attending some workshop even though it's 1.34am! haha.

before

during

after

had to hide mine underneath the others' cause mine's the only one that's folded the wrong way! ):

the end result: 6 letters to ourselves in 2012!
p.s: is the bottle kept safely? cause i remembered it was last seen beside suxian's coffee table.

no. 2 highlight of the night - present exchange time!! (:

thank you lim jiaxin for ur effort to twist & turn the wire to make it star-shaped. (:

thank you cheng liyi & tay eileen for the snowman! it's hanging somewhere visible for me to rmb you all. (:
and the paper roses too! nice! (:
but the bouquet down there? isn't for us. haha. it's for liyi's special someone. heh.

thank you soo suxian & quek peiling for the top & the cardi! (:
hope you 2 like the stuff that i bought.

no.3 highlight of the night - truth or dare??

that's the improvised spinning 'bottle' from twister.

half dead, half awake truth or dare.

no.4 highlight of the night - ice cream binge! ((:
super fattening for all of us since it's like 3+ in the morning alr. haha.

suxian complained that all the pics show only her back, so this pic is taken to her her face! heh.

6 satisfied tummies! (:

i guess it was around 5 plus that everyone of us started drifting off.
honestly, i was drifting in & out of sleep that i can't recall what we were all talking about that night. haha. so if any of us spilled some super dark secrets, it's safe with flor! heh.
ended the sleepover with breakfast at macs.
reached home around 11am, and slept like a pig.
super sorry to gene cause i ps-ed him that night! ):

thank you gene for the christmas card! (:
thank you toh jin for the christmas card & the stars! (:
thank you liu shumin vanessa for the present & the card! (:

p.s: suxian! get the rest of the pics from me when you're online alrights? ((:

the perspiration from running made me feel so at ease & relaxed. i should do that more often.
4 more days to a new beginning. i can't wait! though it's been a roller coaster ride this year, i'm still thankful for the wonderful things & people that i've met this year.
most things in life are simple - it's people who complicate things.
4 more days to put you out of my mind, shift it to 'museum emo'.

self-pity

2007-12-22T01:50:00.000+08:00

i did what i had to do already.
tears were streaming down.
may be tears of sadness or maybe they're tears of guilt.
on the other hand, they might well be tears of self-pity.
everything has finally come to an end.
i need a break terribly..

mood swingy, yet again

2007-12-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

aarrgghh. i feel as though i have split personalities rather than being mood swingy.
there are like a few of 'me' trying to surface within minutes/seconds.
this min calm, the next min grumpy, then happy, then mean, then bitchy, then i dont know.. they're trying to take over me! HELP!

i've been rather pissed with myself the last few days!
i keep forgetting to bring ppl's christmas presents/cards out!
if i'm going to forget them again the next 3 days, i'm so going to kill myself!
not being able to pass the card to cheuk on mon wasnt that bad cause xin said i could share her card.
but i wanted to kick myself hard in the tummy on the platform today when i realised that i forgot to bring hui's present out! argh! then i had to only pass it to her when sch reopens, where christmas is wayy over! ):

that aside, i had a fun time with hui & cat today!
and i'm proud, once again, to say that i haven't been splurging on random stuff other than spending on food & buying wine for charles. *pats shoulder*
i like hanging out with them. they're the few who made life much more bearable in school.
hopefully we have more of such hanging outs! (:
thank you hui for the present & card! (:
thank you cat for the souvenir from thailand! (:
and thank you yan ping for the cookies on wed! (:
i feel blessed with them around in school! ((:

was downstairs chatting with gene & tim yst when lim jiaxin called from msia! ((:
since the guys were there, i couldnt really tell her how much i miss her.
but i was VERY happy when i saw a msian number. heh.
sunday, 10pm seems sooo long! ):
hopefully you'll reach earlier than that time. *prays hard*

18 and a half more hours to meeting wee, stephie & the rest of the sec sch people! ((:
i better remember to bring the presents!!

i need to do what i need to do in order for you to move on.
i dont think i'll regret saying what i need to say.
it's way better than letting everything hang there.

emo nemo

2007-12-20T16:45:00.000+08:00

results are out, earlier than the stipulated date.
my results are better than expected.
thank God thank God thank God!
i felt that i've finally achieved something this year.
at least i didnt let my parents & my uncle (who has a lot of hopes on me) down.
i think i'm motivated for next sem already, or not? *shrugs shoulders*

been rather emo these past few days.
i guess i kind of understand how ade felt.
i too felt that i cant talk to anyone.
it's not like there arent people there who're willing to listen to us.
i guess for me, it's either i dont know how to express it to anybody or it's just at that very moment, i dont know who exactly to turn to.
alrights, i'm confused by what i said. haha.
but i'm really thankful that i have friends who can always make me smile, no matter what.

lim jiaxin is overseas. ))':
i missed her badly.
but at the very least i know she'll be enjoying herself.
i cant wait for sunday to see her & the rest!! (:

i think i'm being very mood swingy but i'm feeling very grumpy the whole day. yes i know it's an unforeseen circumstance. i was looking forward to it, but it had to end in a way that i'd somehow expected it to turn out. oh wells, i'll be over it soon i hope..

meet-ups! ((:

2007-12-14T23:27:00.000+08:00

i'm a happy girl! ((:
with meet-ups & shopping sprees & hanging out with my sweets!

wednesday: PAYDAY! (:
went on shopping spree with jiemei-s (chau choon & toh jin) & yan ping in town!
it was really intense shopping and i felt super guilty on that day! ):
we were supposedly buying christmas presents for ppl but i, yes me, ended up buying stuff for myself! ):
so much for telling the others that i shall not use my card at all that day! )):
but but but, it was really really fun hanging out with them!
especially when chau choon started being very drama and all and making all of us laugh very hard! haha! go drop one of the sub & demand to take drama!
and we met my darling hui at far east plaza! ((:
thanks for giving me an advanced christmas present & chocs from msia from yan ping! ((:

thursday: DATE WITH PEILING! (:
went on a shopping spree, again, with my darling!
we went to marina sq, then walked to bugis, then hopped to town, then went back to lot 1 for dinner, where super unglam stuff happened to the both of us in between!
no worries babe, i promised i wont tell anybody about your thingy alrights? heh.
and, yet again, i bought more stuff for myself! ):
but i did buy liu shumin's christmas present! (: i ALMOST wanted to give up cause i didnt know what to get for her!
as usual, it was real fun hanging out with her, laughing out loud, doing stupid stuff & all. heh.
thanks babe for sending me home after seeing how paranoid i was! (:

today: CHILLING OUT AT SUXIAN'S PLACE
peiling wanted to go cycling and run around and scream but the rest all agreed that it'll rain today so we decided to go suxian's place. (:
peiling actually wanted to go caroling at her place but we ended up playing pictionary.
i agree with suxian that i'm addicted to pictionary too! heh.
but we played like three rounds of pictionary then we decided to play charades with the pictionary cards and stuff.
it was super funny watching peiling act and she got so hooked onto charades that she was still playing it when we were talking at macs! haha.
having conference with PRFs now! ((:
peiling keeps saying 'clubbing' every now and then, liyi keeps trying to entertain us but failed! haha. but i like the combined forces of the song that we did to irritate the rest! heh.
" we're going to the zoo zoo zoo, how about you you you? you can come too too too. we're going to the zoo zoo zoo."
suxian just left cause she has kayaking in the morn tml, leen seems to be doing most of the talking, xin and i are like fading into the background (cause i cant multi-task. heh)

yayness! i love meet-ups & catching up with all my loves! ((:
and yep, next week is filled with meet-ups yet again!
there's sending of cheuk off on mon, kai kai-ing with liu shumin on thurs (thank God for a public holiday so she can take a break from IHG and make time for me. heh), meeting darling hui on fri, sec sch gathering on sat, stayover at suxian place with PRF on sun, christmas dinner with gene on mon! ((:

results are going to be out next friday!
i'm very scared! )):
hopefully i do well! *prays hard*

pics of C.H.O.C.O Milk! ((:

2007-12-10T20:57:00.000+08:00

finally! i'm done with uploading these pics onto blogger.
it took me a VERY LONG while though.
there you go, the pics of C.H.O.C.O Milk - the chocolate milk & the milk packets! (it's some internal joke though. heh)

random pics

Drama

Art & Craft

the kids' work!

my group's work! (:

Sports

the sweet GESL ppl!! ((:

there's roaring sid, praba & ramesh, chau choon aka 'jiemei' & yan ping, toh jin aka 'jiemei' too, reena,hana,sherene,fizah (back row) liyana & raudah (front row), roopini, cat & my darling hui!

i guess i want to be alone for the time being.

rash and irrational decisions made people around and myself suffered.

i so need to set a new year resolution on this aspect!

C.H.O.C.O Milk ((:

2007-12-06T19:41:00.000+08:00

C.H.O.C.O Milk was a SUCCESS!! ((:
three days of playing sports, doing art & craft and drama with the kids was madness+yayness.

day 1: ultra tired
perhaps cause sports was outdoor & i was super high! (tons of unglam pics taken, will upload when i collate all the pics)
art & craft was okay but the kids' imagination was really WOW.
drama was BAD! 4 grps in the activity room & we couldnt control them. we were praying hard for 330pm to reach so that we can break camp.

day 2: on the route to losing my voice
had indoor games as it was raining outside. wasnt as tiring as the kids were constraint by the area but the noise was LOUD.
art & craft was great! haha. we did a collage (so apt hor? like our gesl grp's name!) on rapunzel (:
we really did a collage can? will definitely upload that pic. we didnt have time to finish it nicely, cause i think i asked tj to draw her face too big heh. (and he drew it so fat too! ):)
we actually wanted to scrap drama & have some carolling session instead [thanks ashley (if that's how you spell your name) for offering to play the guitar for us! (:]
but the kids got all excited when they saw the props & costumes so i suppose it went well. (:

day 3: yayness + sadness
since tj used up almost all the backup games for wet weather, sigmund, chau choon, yan ping & me cracked our brains for a while to come up with 3 other games for the day in the early morn. haha. so last min! i suppose it ALWAYS happens to me. heh.
hmm, decided not to scold the kids today, so i kept quiet, ban them from the most interesting game & made them reflect! heh. tried knocking some sense into one of my problem kid.
then it was rehearsals & rehearsals & rehearsals all the way till the big thing!
everything was prepared then bad news!
5-10 mins before the big thing, my 'witch' left for swimming lessons! ))):
then i had to be the witch lor! ):
and evil ashley said i dont have to act as one! and he kept taking random pics of me in that short & ugly costume! ))':
but everything went well after that! ((:
during tea time, they almost made me cry! )':
but i didnt cause ashley was just standing in front of me! blah! haha.
& that problem kid said he'll miss me! aww! so sweet! (: i guess i did made an impact on him in the morn. (:

all good things will have to come to an end huh?
gesl execution is over, 3 days of having fun with the kids: I'LL MISS YOU KIDDOS! ((: (esp, the kids from my group, mavis, & bellamy!)
hopefully i got ashley's email add correct so that he can send us all the pics! heh. ((:
i think i'm a blessed girl when i'm surrounded with kids, even though they can really be VERY loud. but at least it took away whatever unhappy stuff that i'm undergoing now. and not to mention, pretty faces are what cheer me up too. heh.

worn out

2007-12-04T12:41:00.000+08:00

... 50 miles to go,
she was running low on faith & gasoline,
it had been a long hard year...

in the wee hours of the morning,
as i walked along the corridors of the hospital,
lyrics from songs & lines from novels became very apt.
life is (indeed) a weak, fragile thing.
whatever that took place last night frightened me more than i want to acknowledge.
for a moment, i thought i was going to lose him.
i felt super useless cause i stunned - i didnt know what to do.
the first time i felt my heart beating so fast.
the first time i realised how much he actually meant to me.
but it also made me realised who were the few that i actually will turn to.
and as i sat there waiting, i thought about A LOT of things. (yep, that's agreeing to what van & praba said about me when they were on the phone with me today)
i thought, i should learn how to love him first before i try to love others or let others love me.

a great big huge shout-out to:
1. LIM JIA XIN
you never fail to always be there for me, whatever it is.
thank you, big time! (:
2. PRABAAKARAN (i wrote ur full name! heh.)
thanks for calling to make sure i'm fine, even though it's 4 plus in the morning. (:
all will be well for the two of you ya? i believe!
3. LIU SHU MIN VANESSA
if not for the call just now, i guess you'll be condemned le. heh.
but thanks for letting me let out my feelings! (:

almost 29 hours without sleep is alright i guess?
yst was fun fun fun & more fun till that thing happened.
it was first day of execution of C.H.O.C.O Milk & the kids were SUPER hyper & noisy.
after that was KBOXing with the KBOXers [sigmund, toh jin, yan ping, chau choon (aka 'jie mei') & sidney]. heh. ((:
finally, aft sooo long!
majority of our songs are emo songs, i realised.
and through the songs that they sang, can roughly figure out how they're feeling.
or maybe it's only me who had that thinking. heh.

yesterday was the day that i finally realised just a smile,
a simple msg from you or just an eye contact will make my day,
no matter how bad that day was.
is this for real?

bliss! (:

2007-12-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

PJC MOVIE MARATHON
i seriously feel as though we paid 5 bucks just to enter the sch!
heh. didnt catch the first few movies.
sat around the fitness corner facing the track.
memories came flooding back even though the track was dark.
walked many many rounds on the the track - talking, looking at the night scenery, strolling, taking in the breeze & what nots. i love the feeling! (:

heck the movies, i love spending time with my sweeties.
we just kept talking & talking & talking from 9 plus till 1 plus, before gg in to watch 'the sixth sense' (which i cried real badly towards the ending) & 'sisters'.
peiling & i saw METEOR!! (:
it was around 10 plus or 11 like that in the night.
and we made wishes while ignoring xin & sx.
but we made sx cried cause she thought we saw something else.
sorry my dear! *HUGS*
and around 5 plus in the morn, aft the movies.
the four of us screamed like mad in the girls' toilet
cause we saw a frog! heh. xin said we scared the poor thing.

then it was breakfast at macs!
my eyes were hardly able to open then!
and to think gene has to go for driving aft that, thank God the car's insured!
i reached home ard 7 plus & fell asleep from 8am to 6pm. heh.
i really can sleep man! haha.

i just came across van's blog.
hello you, tears were filling my eyes when i saw my name can?
i dont know what else to say but i really really miss you!
make time for me can? even if it's just a while!
thanks for making sch life bearable! ((:

GESL dry run

2007-11-30T16:37:00.000+08:00

i wanna make an exclamation:

i had fun today during gesl dry run & i love my gesl grp mem! ((:

even though not many of them will see this
but i still wanna say that i had fun spending time with them.
i hope that the diff friendships that are made through this 'module'
will continue for as long as possible! (:
i found ppl that i can confide in, talk to, whine to & everything
even though they ALWAYS bully me.
like just now, they actually used ME to test whether a ball is soft/hard! ):
but it's okay! i still love you all! ((:
i guess i'm really going to miss you all when gesl is over! ):
P.S: can we like hang out often often after gesl ends??

alrights, movie marathon in 5 hours!
i cant wait to see all my sweeties! (:
i so think i'm gg to all aslp in the LT. heh.

movie review

2007-11-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

movie review: THE KINGDOM
alrights, i'm hardly a good movie critic cause quoting xin & pl: "flor isn't a very good story teller"
but i really wanna credit this movie cause it's a really good movie! (:
it's abt some terrorist attacks & how this grp of FBI mem went to the crime scene & investigate it, no matter what it takes. the reason for them doing the investigations? cause one of their closest friend, also an FBI mem, was killed in one of the terrorist attacks.
i thought it was a very good movie - as in how the plot unfolds & all, the only sad part is that it wasnt really a happy ending. (that's the thing with reality huh, unlike fairy tales)

what more can i say about this movie?
GO & CATCH IT!
it's worth 4 stars from flor! (:

assuming you're a guy.
how nice will you treat your female friend?
will you be gentlemanly enough to pay for her movie tickets first then discreetly hint her to pay her share?
or will you remind her that she hasnt pay her share in front of a 3rd party & then in the end said you're just kidding & it's alright not to pay when she shove the money at you?
also, will you be gentlemanly enough to at least ask if she needs you to walk her home or what not since it's late?
or will you just happily say bye to her when you reached your stop & add that you're really tired hoping she'll get your underlying meaning?
MAN! WHAT KIND OF A GUY IS THAT??!!

oh wells, that was a lesson learnt &
thanks to PRABA for listening to all my whinings while i wait for daddy to come.
heh, i realised i whine A LOT to him! haa.
if ever you need somebody to whine to, i'm all ears! (:
THANKS AGAIN! (:

special ppl! (:

2007-11-27T06:00:00.000+08:00

i couldnt fall asleep after waking up at 4 plus! ):
so much for whining that i'm tired & stoning & sprouting nonsense to stephie & wee yst at ard 9 plus 10. heh.

i had a wonderful evening with the two of them! (:
it was stephie's early bday celebration!
as usual, tons of last min stuff here & there.
wee & i were rushing from here to there like mad ppl.
but.. all's well! (:
went crystal jade (suntec) for dinner - where stephie was being mean & 'feeding' both of us with a lot of rubbish. ):
what can i say? she was WAY high yst! haha.
went to the fountain of wealth, hoping to SEE our dedication to her on the laser thingy (if that's what you called it) but the song came out before the msg was READ OUT.
tried to take pics of 3 of us + the background
but failed! haha. (pics will be up when i'm not that lazy. heh)
went to starbucks & slack.
she had her cake while i had oreo cheesecake! yayness! (:
and thanks to that, i'm still feeling rather bloated now! ):
i SO need to start my exercise regime.
yep, it was time well spent with the both of them!
22nd dec! i cant wait! (((:

this is rather random.
but it stirred up some emotions in me.
the 5 dragonboaters who drown in Cambodia?
one of them is a pe teacher frm NJC.
hmm, though i dont know him, but somehow i felt sad.
i dont know how to explain this feeling.
but the world seems very 'scary' now.
SOO SU XIAN & WEE WAN QI VANESSA:
PLEASE TAKE THE NECESSARY PRECAUTIONS WHEN YOU ARE ON THE SEA!!
and to all those whom i know, esp those who play sports (not for leisure),
please take whatever necessary precautions there are!

life is really vulnerable huh?
that is why every single day, we're all learning how to cherish the closest ppl around us.
i'm still learning as well.
and to those who knows me, i dont care whether we're close or not or how long we havent talk or what not, being able to get acquainted with you is a blessing and i thank God for putting you in different phases of my life! (:

oh wells, that aside,
i'm going to try & get some sleep before the afternoon hits.
hmm? i do hope we're really not heading to the airport!
i've no idea what we're going to do there.
next time when we're going out, please remind me to shut up! ):

it's over!

2007-11-21T21:05:00.000+08:00

it's finally over!! (:

since it's over, there's nothing much to talk abt it.
i am just hoping everything will go well
and i wont faint when i see my results a month later!

oh wells, today marks the start of 6 weeks of hols.
i think i'm a super no-lifer!
i really dont know what to do for the next 6 weeks -
okay maybe there are stuff to do but, hmm, i dont know how to put it. heh.
oh oh, this is an after thought for this entry!
during these 6 weeks, if possible,
i want to re-live the times where i feel so carefree - the times when i dance.
i am, yes i am after so long, falling in love with dancing again! (:

i was thinking a lot while walking home just now
as usual, the kind of thoughts that make me question a lot,
make me get super emo (it's kind of worse now that i just watched secret - yes, i know i'm WOLS - even though i didnt cried very hard like how others described, but it's still a sad movie)
make me feel as though i'm in the midst of a mid-life crisis.

i feel very drained, i need a getaway terribly!
get away to somewhere peaceful,
to find what exactly is my purpose in life.

alrights, that aside, now that exams are over,
it's time for MEET-UPS!! ((:
1. wee, stephie & maybe emily (if she isnt flying) on mon to celebrate ''the baby's" bday!
2. PRF
3. the kids
4. vann! (i havent met her since, gosh, A levels' prelims!)
5. tania
6. the sec sch ppl
7. the jc ppl
8. hui, cat and yan ping for shopping! (okie, yan ping doesnt count, cos i see her almost everyday! heh, but i still wanna meet her!)
9. the drama mamas! (:
10. liu shu min! (:
okay, and almost every other ppl! gosh, we ALL need to make some time for one another! (:

yep, all the best to those who're still in the midst of their examinations!
hang in there! it'll be over soon! (:
this especially goes out to SOO SU XIAN & QUEK PEILING!! (the two SMU-ies who havent started their exams yet, heh, i'm not digging at you two! ((:)

and to TAY AN XIU & TAN JIA QI GWENDOLYN
all the best for the results tml! esp to meanie,
hopefully you'll do well and make me proud, so that i can prove to myself
that I ACTUALLY CAN PRODUCE RESULTS. haha.

when all you can do is watch a person's back,
all you wish is that person will just turn behind and take a look at you,
and acknowledge you.
because i understand how it feels just to wait for him to turn his back & notice me,
i dont want you to be doing the same thing.
why not go and find someone whom you can see face to face?
it's not hard, you just need to let go of me.

updatessss..

2007-11-08T19:08:00.000+08:00

i need a break from the books!
yes, i've been rather disciplined the past few days,
mugging my ass off for linguistics & not yet touch grammar!

monday till today saw lots of impromptu actions?

monday:
was washing up and i suddenly felt like getting a hair cut.
so yep, i went to the salon and cut my hair! (:
it's short and rather thick (the person REFUSE to 'xiao bao' for me) now.

tuesday:
went back to sch to hand in all the due assignments.
my lovely daddy offered me a ride to and fro ICA,
and even made lunch for me before he left for work.
decided to watch 'goong s' (the episode i missed) on youtube.
wah! i'm in love with that show! (:
yes gene, i know i'm slow, but at least i know of its existence can?
help xin to close an assignment.
and i chatted with stephie on the phone for a while too! (:

wednesday:
last day of school! ((:
i think i screwed up my OP for comm skills, but oh wells!
went can A with some of the girls and tried some deepavali goodies (thanks to roopini's aunt). i'm especially in love with the melted chocolate one! ((:
then went back to canteen to look for yan ping & tj.
wah! i felt like a superultramega watt bulb when i was there! haha.
but i like the chatting part when they involved me. haha.
lunch with 'emo elmo' (sa's new name!)
then she gave us all a ride back home!
went lot 1 to meet xin and gene for dinner.
i found a new love at pastamania - aglio olio! (:
and it's nice with cream of tomato! ((:
aft that, macs - to catch up and all.
listen to gene's ghostly experience at his 'hell camp'.
walk, walk, walk, walk and walk.
before daddy came, i met jun hao! (:

today:
slept like a pig till late morning!
did a little bit of studying before heading to lot 1 to meet emo elmo.
had lunch at ajisen (she ate, i didnt cos i'm boycotting that particular outlet).
went to try out mcflurry's new flavour - mudpie! i like! (:
and then, THE BEE MOVIE! (:
heh, it's nice - hilarious, meaningful, and has a moral to it (to me lar).
then home sweet home!

thank you! JOEL TAN! (:
i'm glad we kept this friendship till now since 11!
thanks for making sure i'm fine aft sunday.
i know you have your own problems as well,
but yep, i'll be there if you need me!
thanks buddy! (:

anyways, emo elmo just intro this song to me!
wah! i really like it! (:
alrights! i guess it's time to hit the books again alr!
there's something wrong with my taggy again! aarrgh!

if only i could help

2007-11-02T21:06:00.000+08:00

i was watching 'life story'
and emotions were welling up.

why are some ppl able to live a luxurious life
but some other ppl cant even make ends meet?

why do we pre-judge a person based on their past?
why cant we view them as who they are now?

is a person's socio-economic background so impt?
why are we so superficial?
why cant we overlook all those and look at a person's heart?

slacker florr! ):

2007-10-31T22:32:00.000+08:00

for the third time, i'm done with editing.
man! the whole module is driving me nuts!!
hopefully ed psych II will be a whole lot more better.
seriously, LJX, i owe you man!
but then, if it still doesnt do for the third time,
i'm really giving up!
you dont know how torturing this is to me man!
it's worst than the A's, honest! aaarrrggghhh!

anyways, i wasnt suppose to be blogging
but i was supposed to read thru my essay thoroughly first.
but i guess it's a tendency that human beings have that we tend to think that whatever we write is correct! haha. so i need a break first, before plunging into my sea of words, yet again! ):

so.. i was blog hopping and i came across this, hmmm,
i'm not sure what you call it, but i shall call it a title? haha.
so much for an expanded vocab that we ought to have now!
anyways, this is what that thingy says:
somewhere within the imperfect me lies a person totally different from what the eye can see..
nice nice? i like! (:
be it the emo part or not! (:

another thing, before i forgot,
this is for WEE WAN QI VANESSA! (:
hello darling you! wah! you really very smart as to come up with the poll thingy can?
*clap clap* ((:
anyways, other than that, i wanna say: I MISS YOU!
and hor, thou we havent been catching up lately or what not,
just wanna say that i'm ALWAYS here for you! (:
and whatever things you're upset over,
i do hope it's over for you le!
drop me a msg when you wanna whine k?
or to some other ppl, but let ppl know how you're doing k?
i promised ur mummy i'll take good care of you,
and i'll keep that promise, no matter what!
take care you! see you soon k?
end of nov!!! *HUGS* ((:

random

2007-10-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

one more essay to finalise and i can finally focus on my exams.
i cant wait for it to be over, and i'll be going away! (:

i was feeling "uncontrolled" the past week!
i'm not exactly sure if that's the right word to use
but i'm glad it's over alr.
as least i know i'm back to maintaining the distance and everything.
gosh! i dont know how long this will last, i hope it'll be over soon too!

tml's is the 100th day.
it's amazing how life still goes on without her.
but i'm rather certain mummy's still affected.
maybe it's cos i'm not really that close to her,
cos every time we go over to "visit" my grandpa,
tears WILL well up, but it's just different when it comes to her.

sigh. MY MAIL IS WOLS!!!!! ))):
guess i'll have to wait till tml! ):
for now, i'm gone!

2007-10-24T20:38:00.000+08:00

PJC ALUMNI MOVIE MARATHON!!

Date: 30th Nov 2007

Day: Friday

Venue: PJ, i suppose?

Cost: $5 per head

i have no idea why i'm helping them to advertise
but yep, maybe we should all go for it?
as a form of class gathering or what not? haha. (:

life's *pukes*
dont want to talk about it now though.
was act gg to focus on my 2500 word essay alr
but i wanna blog this post for

TOH YEW KEAT, EUGENE!

hello you.
all i wanna say is that dont let yourself feel tired.
yes, we all have tons of stuff to do,
tons of stupid stuff to bear with
but we'll make it through one day!
NS will come to an end, then those ppl who treated you like crap now will be forgotten for good.
things, once they're done, wont bother you anymore.
i was almost feeling the same way as you felt all these while until yst.
mummy told me this:
we work so as to feed ourselves,
if we dont have to eat, we wont have to work..
...i'm very tired alr.
upon hearing that, i then realised that only ppl her age are qualified to say that they're tired, not ppl our age!
so yep!
jia you bro! hang in there!
i know you'll make it through one day! (:

to: Lim Jia Xin
hello you! (:
you deserve a pat on your shoulder! (:
for volunteering to cut your hair short,
for not backing out the very last min,
for maintaining a model's smile until you had your hair done with that tight heels you were wearing, while standing,
for having COURAGE!
yay! i cant wait to see you tml! (:

emo-fied

2007-10-21T22:19:00.000+08:00

i'm super emo now!
i dont know why but i'm tearing like mad!

i dont know how to emphasise this,
but i'm really missing school life - as in when u're with a class & everything?
it's quite bad now. really. as in i made new friends, no doubt.
but i dont think we're close to such an extent that we can talk about everything.
i tried though, but somehow, i always hold back.

i dont like this feeling.
it's like you're all alone to fend for yourself?
but you know, at the same time, your old friends are still there for you?
i dont know how to say it,
i just miss all of you!
i miss sec sch days - trainings for cheer comp, copying a.maths & bio, chalets, bbqs, training for footdrill comp, basic & advance nco course, lunch after cca..
i miss jc life - mugging away in canteen, heart-to-heart talks at the grand stand, gossip sessions, toilet visits, library visits, syf trainings..

i guess i should stop being anti-social
and get out of my own comfort zone..
but at the same time, i want to run away from everything.

i just wasted my time away instead of doing my work. argh.
i'm not in the mood to write about self-esteem now - cant find mine anywhere.
the pain in the head is biting me.
i'll pull through, right?

wah!

2007-10-20T06:23:00.000+08:00

good morning!
i'm amazed i'm still awake since 11pm last night?

was rushing my discussion like maaaadddd
and i'm finally done with it, an hour & a half ago i think?
then was finishing up some gesl stuff, just done sending them off to the people.
i'm very zombie-fied now!

anyways, had dinner with ah sa just now. (:
but what really made me happy was i sat on a swing after sooooo long! (:
thank you ah sa, again!
all the best for your interview later, at 7am!
hope you wont be late! haha.

yay! xin's gg for her trial run today!
i hope he wants to perm your hair!
i cant wait to see the new you!
you know what? i'm happy for you! can i put all my hopes on you now? haha.
eh, i need your help! can help me vet my discussion not?? haha.

anyways, this thought's been tugging at me for a while.
i dont like to say this but i really cant stand it anymore.
i really hope you know i'm talking about you,
not trying to say i'm very nice or what,
but a friendship is a mutual thing.
if you only sit back, wait & receive, you dont deserve to be updated!
and you dont deserve to say you miss out a lot when you dont even bother to make the effort to ask how people are doing!
a sms doesnt cost you much, and it doesnt requires much of ur effort.
it's just how i feel about the whole thing, i'm not sure how the rest feels,
if you happen to see this & you're very pissed and all,
by all means.

thanks

2007-10-18T18:04:00.000+08:00

i think i should stop whining for a moment and give thanks instead.

thank you Lord for placing such sweet friends in my life.

thank you XIN for missing me and for reminding me that stressing myself will lead to sloppy work done. you are missed by me too! we'll hang out soon ya? after i'm done with my assign. ((:

thank you LSM for the cookies&cream ice cream just now. it was super sweet of you to come all the way here when you're super packed today. you never fail to make me smile. ((:

sometimes when we feel that our world is crashing down,
all we have to do is to stretch out our hands,
lift up all our insecurities, fears, anxieties, worries to Him.
Lord, i want to hold You till the fear in me subsides..

stressed!

2007-10-18T01:21:00.000+08:00

okay, i'm officially worn out!

PBL is driving me nuts.
i just stuck my face in front of the comp for almost 4 hrs doing some KWL chart, some confusing mind map - the structure confuses me, and some hypothesis thingy that i have to come up with.
and i havent start on my 2500 word essay. ):

grammar assign is manageable - once i find a text that has everything that i need to analyse in that text.
it's either i dont have modals or passive voice, or not enough adverbials, or no collective nouns!

linguistics assign is __________
i dont know how to describe it.
it's hanging there, not going anywhere
and to think our dateline is in like what?
11 days?! (including sat & sun)

comm skills is *pukes*
i have NOT a single idea how to critique on a transcript!
and everybody knows what is going on
and i'm having a TEST on it next wed! ):

GESL is alright i guess?
other than we meeting EVERY week,
the rest is going fine.
just need to polish up some minor stuff then we should be able to stand down for exams.

exams are round the corner!
less than a month to be exact!

Lord, give me the strength to pull through.

thank you LSM!! (((:
for helping me with my PBL and comm skills.
and at the same time train my multi-tasking abilities.
thank you sooooo much! (:

something else that made my day!
thank you for being so nice! (:
even though it might not be a big deal to you,
it's a HUGE deal to me!
thank you! (:

i wonder?

2007-10-15T17:45:00.000+08:00

it's been a while since i last walked in the rain.
it's a pity that it's more of a drizzle just now.

dont start worrying for me!
i'm not feeling very down or what,
i just like walking in the rain and feeling the raindrops hit against my face.
it's just one of the weird things that flor likes. haha.

i was thinking about what a fren said to me this morn,
while walking in the rain just now.
he said i'm those who embraces freedom,
and i give him the impression that i'm not someone who wants to settle down.
i was... what? huh? are you serious?
it's the first time i hear ppl say that about me.
i seriously wonder...

when you said you'll help me sort things out
if i cant sort it out on my own,
i'm truely touched.
now i seriously wonder if i was the one who
purposely drew the line or what...

run away

2007-10-13T17:57:00.000+08:00

MUMMY, FLOR IS SORRY!! )):

i made mummy very worried last night.
i'm sorry that you didnt slp well last night,
while i slept like a pig! *slaps herself*
it'll never happen ever again, i promise.
my word = my bond.

thank you LSM. (:
for "shou liu-ing" me yst night/this morn.
sorry that u had to pon training this morn,
and for freaking both of us out at that place! ):
p.s: once again, you proved ur coach wrong.(:
you did a good job last night during the match!
and yes, again, YOU'RE BEING APPRECIATED!! ((:

this area is getting less and less safe.
the world ard is getting less safe too.
i'm very afraid. what if one day, i'm on the headlines - dead?
paranoia is becoming my middle name very soon.
HELP - anyone out there, please!

thank you! (:

2007-10-10T20:37:00.000+08:00

i like something that my friend just told me:

...we don't have to blindly follow where a potential high earning job leads... i would choose passion anytime.

though we havent been in contact for a while,
he seems to be the rare few who understands why i plunge straight into teaching.
thank you to the few, and i really mean the very few, who understands! ((:

random

2007-10-10T18:49:00.000+08:00

back from my new tution - 2 hrs nearly took my life away.
but it's alright, i'll do my best to help her.
first up, her EOY in another 2 more weeks.

that means i have 2 more weeks to finish my proj & 3 more to finish 2 assign!!
aaaarrrggghhh!!!
so many things, but so little time!
i need some motivation!!

anyways, i'm happy for LIM JIA XIN!!
it's less than a week and you got called up alr!
hopefully, nobody else is auditioning then u'll definitely clinch the deal! ((:

how much courage does one need to apologise genuinely for the things that they have done wrong?
a day, a week, a month, or a yr?
actually, i'm over it for almost a year.
i dont see a point in bringing it up again.
but i thank you for apologising - even if it took you so long, at least you bother to do so.

long over pics!

2007-10-06T23:11:00.000+08:00

okies! finally! some long over due pics frm cammy! (:

my bday cum mid autum fes celebration with PRF, ade & gene!
25th september 2007

gene being bullied by us, carrying all our lanterns for a pose!

my fav pic of the night

flor'sugly photographic skills

angel in a bottle

random pics

casual shots of ade, xin, liyi & gene (left to right)

blindfolded flor with music blasting into her ears!

peiling, flor, suxian

choco fondue!

daddy & mummy! ((:

bday celebration with stephie & wee, farmart!
24th september 2007

stephie & wee! ((:

wee with her signature smile

stephie with her chicken salad

pooh bear (:

and finally, wee's bday celebration at sembawang park!
14th september 2007

wee & me trying to see whose face is redder

wee's bday cake!

stephie, the carrot girl, trying to mix the cake with her carrot!

counting down to wee's bday at her place!

yay!

2007-10-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

i finally found my cable and uploaded my cam pics alr.
so to those whom i've owe pics & videos, u guys will
receive them soon! (:

went shopping with pl!
miss that girl a huge lot. (:
we were supposedly shopping for specific things (court shoes for her, wallet for me)
but we ended up buying random stuff. haha.
anyways, i was really v worn out while we were shopping.
guess me sleeping at 4am explains why.

so then we decided to take a break!
we were just talking abt random stuff when she suddenly did this to her drink!
(refer to pics)
looking for ice in her drink, scooping it up & into her mouth,
biting it into pieces, fitting the "pieces" of ice into her straw, tried aiming, & tried shooting at me.
haha. i said tried cos she missed me!
and she ended up being shot by me, real badly! (:
dont know what's gotten into us, but i really missed those times we used to shoot ice at one another in pj's canteen while drinking ribena!

then we went over to suntec, roam ard & decided to step into adidas,
even though both of us arent that sporty already ever since uni started.
we came across this dri-fit tennis dress, it was really very nice!
but it was way off budget - $284.30
so we decided to try it &take pics of us in it! haha.
there you go..

how was it? i really think she looks nice in the white one! (:

i really had fun just hanging out with her. (: whenever we're out, we never fail to laugh our hearts out at every single thing we said or we came across. i like hanging out with her! it's like having therapy (other than spending our money impulsively). i really hope we could do this more often, pleasee! (:

yayness! (:

2007-10-06T02:40:00.000+08:00

home! (:
i ended my day well, thank you! ((:

van and i were supposed to have lunch
but gesl ended 10 mins to the start of her lesson,
so we met for dinner instead.

was supposed to be gg holland v for dinner aft dropping her roomie off,
but then we decided to head down to chomp chomp.
then her fren called and she realised that she forgot something.
so we went back to her hall to get the rice cooker for her fren,
doodle a little here & there, then headed down to chomp chomp.

by the time we really settled down, ordered food & started eating,
it's ard 1030 or so? it was still okie for me, but she was famished!
poor girl. haha. aft that, we went to macs for mcflurry - yep, i was the only one who was eating thou. haha.
we were just talking and all, then we decided to go k.
but then a little too ex, we decided to watch movie instead.
so we headed for town.

walked to cine & check the movie timings but there werent any nice shows
so we decided to just walk ard orchard.
anyways, side track a bit.
that dumdum clement saw me at cine but didnt come over and say hi!
but he said we were gg opp directions so yep, u're forgiven! haha.

anyways, orchard road was dead.
and the both of us were just crapping all the way.
sang stupid songs (mostly her singing oldies).
sweating like dont know what cos the air was still.
crossed the road and then we saw another side of orchard road.
tons of, i dont know how to describe, dirty trade gg on.
sigh. we kind of regretted crossing the road.
but it was the first time i sprinted & dance ard on an empty pavement in orchard road. ((:

so then we walked back to her car and she sent me home.
that poor girl is super sleepy alr then.
she's like wee man - cannot drive aft midnight. haha.
but it was alr 1 plus in the morn so i guess it's okie to feel sleepy.
plus she is having training in the morn at 9am so yep, really poor thing lor.

but you really made my day!
thank you for trying every bit to make me happy!
i thank Him for bringing you into my life!
thank you so much! ((:

and to my darling boy!
though i didnt get to say happy birthday to you,
and i'm a bit upset that i didnt see you but you saw me just now,
i still hope u enjoyed urself today!
and it's really been a while since we last chatted.
hope you've been fine all these while.
happy seventeen! (:

i love this! ((:

2007-10-04T00:41:00.001+08:00

yayness!! i've been looking for this song for a looong time! i love this song to bits!! highly recommeded by flor!! ((:

what a day!

2007-10-03T20:08:00.000+08:00

today was totally crap! )):

was stuck outside sch for nearly 40 mins?
was late for comm skills.
had to do my "little talk" in front of the whole class, which i screwed up.
and screwed up our grp's presentation too.

then was late again for linguistics tutorial.
thank God i wasnt the last one and i didnt made a "grand" entrance.
then i couldnt do the transcription for phonetics.

then had linguistics test earlier on.
yep, u got it. i screwed it up again.
my answers are all diff frm the rest of them can?
so much for understanding what i've been studying huh?
and so much for all the luck ppl gave.
guess i am just down on luck all the while so it didnt help. ha.

then went to withdraw money just now at cck central.
thank God for daddy & mummy.
not i'll be robbed alr!
that person was THIS CLOSE to robbing me can?
i could sense what he was trying to do so i hurried to daddy's car.

how crappy can a day go man?
seems like all the unfortunate things can be found on flor
hopefully nothing else bad will happen.
*crosses fingers*

but something made my day! ((:
lunch with vanessa! ((:
anyways, she's an ex pioneer too! haha.
the world is so small.
and ppl, she knows ms lee can?
she taught them GP too. haha.
and she thinks ms lee puts in alot of effort to teach GP.
she didnt know ms lee wasnt trained in GP till i told her today.
but yep, she's really nice.
i thank God for her - for being part of my life! ((:

stupid florr

2007-10-03T02:52:00.000+08:00

crap! i cant slp, again!
stupid thoughts keep coming at me!
leave me alone, please!
i really dont wanna think about them right now.
quoting frm sx: "stop zapping my energy"
i really am not in the mood to worry or think about you all now.

can i ask something?
how much effort would you all put into a friendship?
are u the one who keeps putting in the effort?
or are u the one who sit backs, relax and receive everything?

is it becos i deem such stuff as important that i think it goes two ways?
no point being the one who always put in the effort and not getting anything in return right?
or is it normal for things to turn out this way?

if you ever come across this,
yes, i think you arent putting in the effort.
and it hurts to suddenly feel as if u're drifting.
maybe it's just me being oversensitive
but i honestly dont think so.
so if u really are, i'm okie with it, really.
but please STAY AWAY from me as far as possible then.

oh wells.
something less heartening.
there's this girl that i met during critical perspectives on mon.
she's really really very nice!! ((:
that lesson was the last lesson but it was the first time we talked!
goodness, but we clicked instantly can?! haha.
she's really funny and everything.
reminds me of evon goh kah ling.
and i think i have an affinity with ppl called "Vanessa" (:
so yep, though i was rather pissed yst,
she made my day! (:

kiss me

2007-09-30T15:24:00.001+08:00

i know why xin's in love with this song.
cos i'm in love with this song too!! ((:

happy bday to me! (:

2007-09-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

i'm officially 19! (:

0000
was supposedly getting ready for bed but i couldnt slp.
was bombarded with calls and messages.
chatted on the phone with joel for ard 2 hrs?
realised that it's been 9 yrs since we knew one another,
and it's the first time our convo sounds so intellectual.
it's been great catching up with him. (:

0830
switched on my phone and was reading bday messages.
cried when i saw the bday msg that daddy sent. (:
"happy birthday. (: have your breakfast with eggs."
he never really says how much he cares.
so when he does such sweet stuff, i always feel very loved.

1300
went back to unity to see the kids and pat & the rest.
i guess it's cos i havent been ard the kids for a while,
they're really very loud! haha.
spent half of my time in the staff room chatting with eunice & yun yi.
pat & peggy werent in sch. yvonne was having supp class.
and eunice is finally pregnant! (:
now the whole alley is filled with mummies & mummy to-be.
i realised that i missed them a lot.
i should go back more often, esp on fri since they always have "party"

1845
was attacked by liyi & sx.
blind folded myself and took a cab with them.
they were blasting music into my ears so that i dun hear their convo
but apparently i still can! (:

then we reached this place.
at first i thought it was farmart.
then sx said she saw her fren at singtel.
i knew it was westmall, somehow.
then they guided me into the shopping mall.
i was certain it's westmall le. i've roamed that place for 4 yrs.
i guess i can pretty much know where the stalls are with my eyes closed. haha.

ppl were looking at us.
act i dun feel anything since i cant see ppl's reaction.
then we finally came to the eating place.
sat down, adjusted to the surroundings for a while,
and was surprised that my VIP was YEONG MUN YAN ADELINE!!
gene doesnt count cos i kinda expected him to be there. haha.

2030
was surprised by the presence of my other VIPs - DADDY & MUMMY!!
we had ice cream cake (aft lots of food & ice cream),
presenting and opening of pressies,
sabotages, unglam shots...

2145
mummy & daddy left for home.
we decided to have another round of celebration
for mid autum festival!
many many rounds of sparkles,
playing with the traditional lanterns,
made 6 wishes each (thou gene didnt really make 6 cos of the candles),
my thank-you speech,
more pics & videos.

2300
home sweet home! (:

i wanna say a big, fat, enormous, huge, gigantic THANK YOU
to EVERYBODY who made this day perfect for me!

those who texted:
an xiu, ally, shan, zhi cai, joel, xin, pl, sx, ade, eenie, shah, hui, roopini, sista, gary, gene, helmi, gina, tim, hema, sidney, yi ying, yong yaw, zi xian, cindy, chun, tania, hong siong, daddy

those who called/tried calling:
vanny, hema, gina, joel, toh jin, yan ping

those who did it personally or otherwise:
estee, stephie, wee, char, shilin, clement, jeremy, jeremy wong, daniel, jacky, jj, ah si, nerri, gwen, liyi

i hope i didnt leave out any names?
anyways, it's the best bday yet!
thank you guys! (:

was at farmart with stephie & wee yst.
the ambience was really very nice.
the food was great too.
i enjoyed their company and they really bought a huge pooh for me!
we were very mad throughout the dinner,
and sorry to the poor waiter whom we kept laughing at.

never mind how my past birthdays went.
this year was AMAZING!
i feel very loved by all you ppl. ((:
and yep, i'll cherish you guys for life.

an ultra big fat THANK YOU to
LIM JIA XIN!!
thanks for taking time to plan eveything,
even though there're hiccups here and there,
it's really alright.
dont be such a perfectionist for once!
ur plan went great and i cant tell you how much i appreciate you
and all those who were being "bossed" ard by her.

i can go on forever but i shall shut up alr.
the pics should be up provided i find my cable,
or if ppl arent lazy to upload theirs and send it to me. (:

before i buzz off,
THANK YOU to those who played a part
or who made an effort to wish me, in one way or another.
this year clashes with mid autum fes
celebrated both eng & lunar bday tgt on the same day.
it'a once in 19 years, and it's truly a great day for me. (:
hope we can meet up and catch up like these more often! (:
and may all our wishes come true!! ((:

sha gua

2007-09-23T19:54:00.001+08:00

how many of us can relate to this?

pleasant surprise!

2007-09-22T00:12:00.000+08:00

home sweet home! (:

TGIF! (:
act wasnt really looking forward to today,
nothing much to look forward to though it's the weekends.
but but but, the day went great! ((:

pleasant surprise from the gesl ppl!
i was really shocked, though i didnt show it.
i'm really really touched.
thanks to YOU ALL - yan ping, cat, hui, roopini, toh jin, chau choon & matthias!
i dont know what to say but,
thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks & million and one thanks to you guys!! ((:
somehow, you guys make me feel so blessed! (:

and then while walking towards 199,
guess who i met??
XIE DE LIANG TIMOTHY PAUL!
haha, was wondering yst that i havent been seeing him & talking much to him
and then i met him today! haha.
i'm glad that i met him, it's really been a while man. (:

and then had dinner at jp with gene.
crapped and went to watch movie.
and he bought me my bday pressie too! (:
yes, you're forgiven if u cant celebrate my bday with me.

the invasion - science fiction.
it was thrilling and it was really a great show.
something that made me wonder throughout my journey home
what if humans were not humans?
what if the ppl closest to you werent the real them anymore?
anyways, nicole kidman was talking abt piaget, kohlberg and all.
and i'm proud that i know who she's talking abt!! ((:

looking forward to tml and sun!
and that means i gotta finish reading my ed psycho tml morn
so that i can enjoy the weekends! (:

i know this is demanding.
but i wish you could at least wish me on my birthday..

emo-fied

2007-09-20T11:53:00.000+08:00

everybody seems to enjoy birthdays.
i WAS looking forward to this year's
but every little hope that this year's will turn out great came crumbling down..

i tried to not think that it's me..
but somehow it all seems to boil down to me..

nobody ever knows how hard i cried as my birth day approaches every year.
i'm not as brave as ppl perceived me as..

i wish i could stay as a child forever.
i wish i didnt know how much responsibilities i have to bear.
i wish i could take the easy way out - drop everything and leave.
but i dont have the ability to do so, or rather, i dont have the courage to..

i pray that the next 5 days would be peaceful - no upheaval, no complications, no nothing..

missed! ((:

2007-09-19T23:04:00.000+08:00

yayness!! ((:
though the day didnt start off well, it ended quite well! ((:
hopefully a fren, whose day didnt start off well too, ended well like mine. (:

never mind the unhappy stuff.
i was a good samaritan today!
i directed 2 indonesians to sentosa, on the train back frm ps.

went back to school for the drama production aft tuition
and i'm glad i went back!
it was really really very nice.
there was this scene which reminded me of SYF.
gosh! i missed those times! ):

and guess what?!
my sweet pea actually missed me!!
aawww! how sweet is that?!
he was the one who made me cried real bad on my last day,
and he was the one who gave me something that he loves so that i'll rmb him!!
thanks estee, for telling me! ((:

though i have been through tons of bad times,
i love the fact that the little things that ppl do or say actually make my day!! (:

counting down: 6 more days!! *high high* ((:

unearthly hours )):

2007-09-18T02:31:00.000+08:00

don't ask me why i'm up during such unearthly hours, cos sx just did!
haha. that was rather sweet of her but i just had tons of stuff on mind.

the weekend was CRAP! )):
though fri night was great - spent quality time with wee & stephie, counted down to wee's bday (with some stupid stuff that i did in btw which i shant mention), and got real high.
but sat was i dunno, TOTALLY CRAPPY!!
wanted to go for glass gathering but the day didnt start well at all!
sorry ade for not gg for the gathering.
anyways, the brother had to made me cried damn badly in the early morning!!!
totally spoilt my mood for the rest of the day can?!
hello, the last time i checked, i dont deserve to be treated this way can?!
wth. i dont think i owe you my life! aargh!
i wished i had the courage to use a knife and slash my wrist or throat
RIGHT IN YOUR FACE!
i'm surprised i'm still sane after everything.
but i'm not sure how long i can stand it anymore.
it's beginning to wear me out.
so anyways, decided to go mia for a while - appearing offline, switched off my phone and everything?
but somehow, some nice souls made my day though it was just a few hours away frm a new day.
thank God for them! ((:

anyways, realised that there're others who are gg through their own rough patches too.

sx & pl are damn stressed over sch work.
guess SMU isnt really that great aft all huh?
and pl act forgot to hand in her work!
darling, PLEASE go and make frens with the other lawyers to-be.
and to sx, dont get too stressed out.
try coping with it (i know you will), if not when u're doing ur other deg, i think u'll be the nxt one gg mia other than eenie.

darling stephie just went through a rough patch with teddy and she's giving themselves the nxt 6 mths to sort things out. weigh ur consequences before deciding on anything ya?
but whatever u decide on, wee & i will be here! ((:

hema had a crappy sat too. ):
if i ever see her in sch this week, i'm gg to grab her and give her a huge bear hug!
she's so brave, i think i'll break down real bad if such a thing happens to me.
but i'm sure things will work out for the two of them! ((:

and then to these 2, a darling and a buddy of mine, who're in the same boat as me.
xin & gene, no matter how unappreciative our family mem can be at times, know that u 2 are being appreciated by others.
all ur efforts didnt go down to waste.
i've seen them, ur other frens knew abt them.
and if it helps, in any way, God saw it.
i came up with an analogy on sat.
we're all like volcanoes.
there'll be some time where we'll wanna erupt, allowing all the stuff to flow out of it.
when they're done with flowing out, we're left with an empty volcano.
then we can start accumulating everything again.
okie, dun mind the not so technical terms for geog, i admit i did badly for geog!
the pt is that, everybody has a saturation pt.
once they reached it, emotions have to be let out.
and gene, this means even if u have to break down in public.
but aft all the emotions have been let out,
we know that all 3 of us will forgive them for being unappreciative.
and then we'll do some other stupid things again,
just to be appreciated by them.
i believe that one fine day, they will appreciate us (though i think mine is hardly possible to happen).

oh wells, off topic a bit.
i was "enlightened" in a way during critical perspectives today, or rather yst.
it was on multicultural education.
the presenting grp played a song titled
"we're all like crayons"
cant rmb the tune and all, but totally agreed to this.
dont ask me why, just felt that my emotions were stirred when i saw the title.
the weird stuff that i do at times. haha.

drained!! ):

2007-09-13T21:10:00.000+08:00

to be a child

is to see silver in the sea

and gold in everything.

to cry and feel no pain.

to have no past and see

the future in a day.

to paint bright pictures of dull scenes

and see the sun shining in a puddle.

to ask all the time,

and yet be sure of everything.

a shout out to my beloved! (:

2007-09-07T13:44:00.000+08:00

below is something that i wanna tell all my beloved friends out there!!
i dont think i needa list you all out right?
you all know who you are! (:
i wanna tell you guys how much i appreciate you all! (:
thanks for everything - sticking by me and standing all my whinings/nutty-ness.
enjoying & sharing all my happiness/sadness. (:
you guys make me who i am today!
i'll always cherish all the times we've had together. (:
you guys will always be in my heart.
and i'll stand by you guys always! *hugs* ((:

I'll Stand By You

Oh why you look so sad
The tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
Cause I’ve seen the dark side too

When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

So if you're mad get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide
I get angry too
Well I’m a lot like you

When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you're wrong

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in into your darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

And when, when the night falls on you, baby
You feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in into your darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

Oh I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you

randomness!

2007-09-07T13:04:00.000+08:00

i'm back frm sentosa! wee! (:
it was fun but kinda awkward?

had to pose for him but whenever he asked for poses, i dont look natural.
then he'll say it's not nice and all? haha. then when he doesnt ask me to pose, i'm natural.
it's quite the truth right? i'm no pro model, mind you.
how can i be natural when i know the camera is THERE?
and i tend to look away frm the camera whenever he wanna take my front view.

but it was quite an experience aft all! (:
that dumdum was quite irritating throughout the whole trip!
he was super cranky and so he just crapped ALL THE WAY!
i almost wanted to scream at him and ask him to shush.
he was attracting too much attention and everybody in the train was practically staring at him!
gosh! cant imagine he's a teacher, so kid-ish. haha.

to xin: i really felt like i was gg out with a close guy friend.
nothing much. maybe it's cos my thoughts are being occupied by another person? haha. i dont know man! (:

yst went for GESL bbq.
it was ok i guess?
i think ard 3/4 of the ppl came?
but the atmosphere was kinda dead there.

went to westmall with hui first to buy mahjong paper (which we didnt use eventually)
then hui and i just crapped all the way to yan ping's house.
the 2 of us can form a market man. (reminds me of pl, xin, wee, stephie, hema and those whom when put tgt with me can likewise form a market! haha.)
before that the 2 of us waited at the mrt for ppl to turn up
BUT nobody came so we just left for yan ping's house on our own. (:

okies. so when we were there, i had fun i guess?
we just crapped and kept suaning toh jin, who looks like a malay & cant speak mandarin properly! haha.
then aft that they all started arrowing me! ):
sigmund had to tell everyone how i was running aft 199 that fateful day!
then everybody started laughing at me! ):
i got suan-ed real bad, everybody either calling me auntie or unglam!
prabaa is the mean one la! said unglam is my middle name!
fine, i shall accept it since i was really unglam for dont know how many times yst.
and everybody came to a conculsion yst that flor is very loud! haha.
cant help it i guess? i'm just like that. and a bit nutty too. ((:

prabaa was telling us his freaky dream when this black cat appeared.
what was worst was that the cat climbed up a wall/ledge/whatever and stared straight into my eyes! gosh! scared the freak out of me! ):
and to think the day before xin was telling me abt the storyline of dead silence
and honestly, i was freaked out while listening to it alr.
cant imagine if i were to watch it! haha.

okies. conculsion: we ought to have more of such bonding sessions where everybody could turn up and stay to chat! ((:

lengthy post again

2007-09-05T18:01:00.000+08:00

WARNING: lenthy post ahead! ((:

kena tagged by ppl again le but i wanna reply to this particular person! (:

1. The person who tagged you is:
WEE WAN QI VANESSA!! :D

2. Your relationship with her is:
my bestie! (: been helping her mummy watch over her these few yrs!

3. Your 5 impressions of her:
cheerful, nice, great fren, my laughing partner, sweet!

4. The most memorable thing she had done for you:
sending me a v.day card, out of the blue, last year! (:

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you:
hmm? come to think of it, we dont really convey our care & concern thru words. haha.

6. If she becomes you lover, you will?
listen to all her whinings and dont tell her which way to go when she's driving! haha.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on:
make better desserts (esp when it comes to mixing semi- solidified mango pudding and ice cream!) haha.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
i can never picture her as my enemy la!

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
dunno? never gave it thought before.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
bring her out and just spend quality time with her! (:

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
one great friend to treasure for LIFE! ((:

okies, that's that, updates for now! (:
e-learning week is crap!
i'm practically gg back to sch almost everyday and the past 2 days plus today was hectic and more hectic!

was down at see ming's hostel almost the whole day trying to finish up our presentation. and realised that we were super productive before we fill our stomachs cos aft that, we'll start stoning alr. haha. the rest of the grp except see ming were on msn last night till this morn finalising everything and i'm amazed at how prudence and i can come up with our role-play script thru msn. haha. but then the both of us were super cranky this morn and we honestly made a lot of noise. haha. poor yan ping & see ming. they have to stand all our nonsense and i obviously blamed it on the fact that both of us slept at ard 3 and 3.30am this morn and we had to meet the grp at 9am in sch. but thank God we're done alr, except for the real presentation itself the coming mon. (:

yst was down in sch again for GESL meeting. even thou only 4 of us were present, that meeting was rather draining on my brain la! and i got suan-ed by the 3 of them towards the end of meeting cos i tot we were still gg to continue when everybody else started packing alr. haha. anyways, had a great time with hui aft that - talking and eating and laughing and everything. ((:
thanks darling for everything, esp yst when i was mulling over how to do my ed psycho forum discussion! i wouldn't be able to do anything if werent for you la! thanks thanks! *hugs* (:

act wanted to chiong finish all my work today but my plan got screwed up by com skills! we've to do this set of reading by the next lesson and my reading is like the most out of the 3 readings that we're tasked to read la! anyways, i met annie and mark in sch today. lucky mark, get to stay in hall 16!

okies, half of the week is finally gg to come to an end! (:
tml and fri will be gg out days! (:
GESL outing tml and SENTOSA on fri!! (:
i cant wait for sentosa thou!

counting down - 20 more days!! ((:

reply reply! ((:

2007-09-03T19:15:00.000+08:00

okies, here's the reply to suxian’s post since im so honoured that im in her top 10 list ((:
here goes

top 5 birthday presents you wish for:

a new phone three! ((:
a new watch
going out bags
new wallet
someone nice (:

Answer the following questions:
1. The person who tag you is?

SOO SU XIAN!!! ((:

2. Your relationship with her is:

hmm? she's my good fren - someone whom i'll wanna protect for life! (i'm not les thou. haha)

3. Your 5 impressions of her:

cute, sweet, great friend, pretty and nice

4. The most memorable thing she had done for you?

hmm? there are 2 leh. she bought me a vintage watch (something i love) and a handphone accessory out of the blue! ((:

5. The most memorable words she had said to you?

..we can begin by trying, cos i miss you florence siew.. (i guess it's something only the 2 of us know what the content is abt. haha)

6. if she becomes your lover, you will?

why not? i'll protect her for life! haha

7. if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?

nothing much? except to spend more time with me!

8. if he/she becomes your enemy, you will?

she's too nice to become anybody's enemy la!

9. if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?

MAJOR misunderstanding, but it'll be more on my side. haha.

10. the most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?

tell her how much i appreciate her as a good friend! ((:

11. your overall impression of him/her is?

wonderful friend to have.

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?

silly? or more of crazy & emo i guess?

13. the character you love of yourself is?

thinking that everybody out there is nice.

14. the most ideal person you want to be is?

smarter? happier? slimer? less demanding? someone who's worthy to be loved.

15. for people that care and like you, say something to them.

thanks for sticking by me during my down times. i know i'm super whiny at times and i know at times i really drive u guys crazy but still, i'm who i am cos of you guys! I LOVE YOU ALL! *hugs*

16. pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you.

1.hema

2.su xian

3.pei ling

4.jia xin

5.liyi

6.gene

7.ade

8.stephie

9.wee

10.chun ren

who is no.6 having relationship with?

haha! he's super scandalous la! he's practically having r/s with all his girl friends to others. ((:

Is no.9 a male or female?

female

If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?

hmm, dont think so! he is too short for her! haha, no offense bro! (:

How bout no.8 and 5?

goodness! definitely not a good idea. haha

What is no.2 studying about?

hmm? she's smart. studying business and social sciences (nt sure what she can study for this yet)

When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?

gosh! so long! last wed.

What kind of music band does no.8 like?

hmm? that's a tough one. anything nice i guess? haha.

Does no.1 has any siblings ?

1 elder bro and 1 elder sis

Will you woo no.3 ?

why not? she's got the brains and the figure! haha.

How about no.7 ?

yep! she's got the brains and she's really nice too!! (:

Is no.4 single ?

nope, she's married!! haha (:

What is the surname of no.5?

CHENG

What is the nickname of no.10?

chun

What is the hobby of no.4?

KBOXING! (:

Do no.5 and 9 get along well?

hmm? they dont know one another but i think they would if they knew each other cos both of them like to cook! ((:

Where is no.2 studying at?

SMU

Talk something casually about no.1?

she’s there when i need someone to talk to recently! (:

Have you try developing feelings for no.8?

haha! no! i dont wanna get killed by teddy!

Where does no.9 live at?

cck cresent.

Are no.5 and 1 best friends?

no leh. they dont really know each other. haha.

Does no.7 likes no.2?

yep! (:

How do you get to know no.2?

jc classmates, same clique! ((:

Does no.1 have any pets?

nope!

Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?

haha! i think so? everybody is sexy in their own way right? (: